I am a PhD candidate in Tartu, searching for the imprints of dynamical friction in different environments, and how through this there might be a possibility to constrain the properties of dark matter and other dynamics in galaxies. Supervised by Rain Kipper.
I am very interested in galactic dynamics, computational astronomy and lately I am exploring superbubbles in NGC628 as seen by JWST-MIRI.
@neilhimself I didn't think they would tell their major content creators... even you.
It feels like a kind of unfair jab at both writers and actors, which Amazon will likely blame, in part, on the strike.
It certainly makes me want to cancel my subscription with them, and just watch their content in a different way, when I want to watch it at all... which presumably hurts anything negotiated, such as residuals.
I am thinking about autism this morning. Every self-assessment I’ve taken since I was a teenager scores ‘yep, that’s you’. (I have taken a LOT of self-assessments. Every few years I’ll go through a whole bunch, just to confirm.) But I don’t have a formal diagnosis. And even though I would never require a formal diagnosis from anyone else, I have still, for decades, struggled to know whether I’m ‘allowed’ to understand myself in this way or speak about myself as #autistic.
"The more I seek validation, the worse my life becomes, and the more I allow myself to be myself, the better I feel." I could say the same thing, honestly, about my own journey in life.
@cynaq@actuallyautistic Yes! This perspective is so helpful and relatable. This morning I went back and re-took the RAADS-R and the CAT-Q and the results are the same as they have always been - high. And there is my own knowing of myself that has also been the same since I was a teenager! So maybe it is time to claim/name this more openly, despite not having (or seeking) a formal diagnosis. <3
Does anyone need a #Bluesky code? I have a few & would love to give them to critical academics or #vegan, #environmentalist, pro-#Palestine comrades… maybe you know people who fit that bill and are still stuck on Xitter?
(I love Mastodon but I think BSky is attracting more former chronic #Xitter users to switch over, and really, whatever works at this point)
Some time around 2015 or so I had a horrifying experience where I was at work on a really windy day, and a branch was just banging on the wall outside all day.
The constant noise seemed to ratchet up my stress levels all day until I literally shut down. First I lost the ability to speak, then to even walk.
I stumbled out of my office, and the office manager called an ambulance, and I was hospitalised, but nothing was found. The doctors ultimately put it down to some kind of migraine, whereas I assumed it to be some kind of overstimulation thing.
However, it seems to be that since then, if I'm under too much stress, I start stuttering.
It's uncommon, and usually related to work stress, or occasionally emotional stress.
I can still (for the most part) think fluently, but attempting to speak results in a stutter, and I just have to wait it out.
The thing is, it doesn't seem to fit any categorisation I can find. It doesn't seem to fit selective mutism, and everything I can find about stuttering seems to indicate that when it starts it doesn't stop, whereas when the source of stress is removed, I'm usually OK within a few hours, or after a good night's sleep.
It's terribly embarrassing when it happens, but it's usually a sign that I need to relax, like, immediately.
It's never happened during a psychologist appointment.
Until today, when I apparently stepped on an emotional landmine. Towards the end of the session, I started talking about some deeply traumatic memories that unblocked last week... and my heart started pounding, and I started to lose my ability to speak, until nothing would come out except a stammer, unless I made a huge effort, and even then, it's incredibly slow.
I can still type though, so I grabbed my phone and typed out what was happening, and she was able to talk me through some exercises to get me talking (slowly), and safe enough to drive home, but we were over time by that point, so there wasn't time to explain beyond more than a brief "nervous system response to flashback" just WTF happened to me.
I don't understand it. Google isn't helping AT ALL, because nothing fits. I can think the words, but they won't come out when I try to speak, but eventually I'm OK again.
I've always just assumed it was stress-related "autism" thing, but now I don't know. I couldn't seem to find anything that seems to fit the experience, of a temporary stutter in that circumstance and I just want to know if other people have had this experience.
I'm guessing I've spent more than a hundred hours talking to psychologists over the years, and it's just never happened before.
I quite liked Western Lane and If I Survive You, but gave up on This Other Eden after one chapter (which is very unlike me, but I just did not get on with it at all) #BookerPrize#currentlyreading#bookstodon
Well, thanks to the library I did end up giving everything shortlisted for #BookerPrize a go. #Currentlyreading Study for Obedience. Have heard a lot of criticism of the writing style, but so far I'm enjoying this quiet, eerie book. #bookstodon@bookstodon
#AskingAutistics Does telling an allistic person you're #autisticever help improve communication? Over and over, I let people know I'm autistic in hopes it will help, but it never makes things better. It seems like no one wants to do the reading, or to make an effort to even meet me halfway. The main reactions I get when I disclose fall into these categories:
Ignore it entirely and just keep on like I'm not autistic.
Say I'm nothing like their 10 year old nephew who has #autism.
Assume that since we're friends it doesn't matter, because friendship is magic and will enable me to "overcome my autism" with them if I am just motivated enough, and if they aren't special enough for me to do that then I don't really value them as a friend.
Give advice on how I can mask better for their comfort and convenience, like I haven't spent my whole life becoming expert on that.
Try to be accommodating without taking the time to learn what is helpful and what is just going to make things worse.
Infantilize me and treat me like a child or an intellectually disabled person.
Give up on me because autistic people are too hard to deal with.
No reaction, because most people don't know anything about autism. They don't even understand that I'm doing all the work to bridge the communication gap, or that they could do anything to help, or even cut me some slack when I fail.
I do have a couple allistic friends who accommodate me enough to maintain a decent relationship, but they are rare and special. And we had somehow worked that out before I knew I was #ActuallyAutistic even, so telling them still didn't change much.
Has anyone had communication improve by telling someone you're autistic? Or is that just a fantasy?
@Falco_77@BZBrainz@joshsusser@actuallyautistic
Interesting. Made the same observation during my years as an academic, albeit I had to refine those skills early in my career. It's like 'mode switching', where the professional formal mode switches between the informal mode and even the 'autistic' mode (rarely in public).
Okay so datamining of models suggest that the details of cims are way overworked with 40 000 polygons or more for details you cannot see in the game (you can't zoom in that far).
The performance of the game is... not good for a lot of players that struggle with framerate dips down to <10 fps on 30-series NVIDIA cards.
I don't know much about gamedev or 3D modelling but this seems like an odd choice.
@moondog548 Scuttlebutt is that Life By You, Paradox's The Sims clone, is planned to be integrated into Cities Skylines 2, so they outsourced the creation of all the CS2 cim models to another company, Popul8, and they were tasked with making models that would work in both games. My guess is there was a miscommunication between the two companies on providing some LOD models for CS2 so it wouldn't have to try and render all of the "The Sims"-level details. But that's all just "big if true" speculation.
@AlexSanterne@StayGrounded_net Congratulations! I made the same decision 5 years ago, after returning to Germany from the US. Feels good, doesn't it? Even if it's sometimes annoying and complicated to get places, I've found that one always gets there, somehow.