I like having offline apps on my old android phone. Such as the Kiwix app with offline wikipedia, Organic maps app with downloaded maps, Readera app with some epub books.
IMHO you have to download the whole media again, only the dub is very difficult that would match the video seamlessly - even subs often desync because in that particular zone they cut 2 seconds from a scene or they are playing the media at a wrong frame rate (now less common but with analog media it happened a lot)
Blink twice if you need out of the marriage and don’t know how to do it. Traveling to a place for four days and and growing ferns there isn’t compatible. Do you need help?
Oh I definitely need to get out, for both my mental and physical health, and I know it’d take longer than four days til I’d be able to grow ferns, heh.
However, I do know what I’d need, as I’m in a unique position that it’d take only a week to two weeks to know if my body and mind are still capable of holding a job. However, I would definitely need to start making money ASAP, as my health really needs certain foods at regular intervals (thanks to desperation and seeing a doctor before I was fully able to afford it, to which the meds she prescribed for chronic pain seriously messed up my digestive system and quite possibly exacerbated the damage to my respiratory system by a lot).
The key is finding a job that my broken body and broken mind can even have a chance to do. I need to be far enough away in a completely different environment. I need to have a comfortable bed, couch, cot, whatever that’s not on the floor/ground, and a place to shower and go to the bathroom. As well as electrical for a small burner to cook food. Unfortunately, I do believe I need to be alone (Which, I’m totally fine with camping as long as I can get a bed off the ground and a large enough tent for it. I have most other things that I’d need), and any job I get would definitely have a flexible schedule so I could find the best hours for my broken body.
If I was even half healthier than I am now, I’d be gone, heh. Alas, I am not…OOooooow, my back, knee, belly…OOooooow! Meh, at least I get to sleep on a bed for the first time in two years for at least the next four days, YAAAY! HAH!
What kind of support network do you have? Do you have anyone with whom you can discuss this offline, who will support you?
Don’t have any. My whole family basically are the same as my wife.
Also, I assume this is something where you don’t feel safe just leaving when your wife is there.
It helps me to understand what precisely is the mechanism by which this would go wrong, if you just told her “I’m leaving”.
Can you describe that? The reason why it has to be when she’s away?
Pppp! It’s mental. I’m in a god awful amount of pain (not in quality, but in quantity, the sheer number of parts of my body that hurt is too many to count, and it’s extremely erratic, changing constantly. And then when she finally allowed me to use money to see a doctor in late 2021, the meds they prescribed messed up my stomach, lungs, and I’ve gotten pretty bad dizziness, chest pain, and now stomach pain, and it’s just as erratic as my pains are. Then throw in just normal aging pains, and my mind is just nuttier than hell). On top of that dealing with her…erm…lack of empathy/love/caring/whatever does not bode well when I need to concentrate on driving. There may be other mechanisms that cause such distress, but for the most part it’s just to be far more relaxed and have nothing more stressing me out.
I can connect you with people who run men’s groups online, if that would be helpful for you in establishing a support network.
Edit: After thinking about it over night, maybe it would be best to join a men’s group. I could definitely use more social interaction. It would be so helpful, plus I really need to find friends…and learn to stop myself from over indulging my depression (both from pain and marriage)…Especially while I’m still capable of learning (even if it’ll be rather slow). [If it’s too late, meh, that’s ok. I am well aware of how slow I am now, heh].
It would be nice if I could use it, but unfortunately my situation is just so convoluted. The chronic pains, GERD like symptoms from those meds, and her attitude towards me all mashed together creating a quagmire of nonsensical mental duress. The really only way I’d be able to see if there can be anything that can calm me down would be getting away, but that’s if and only if my pains don’t get in the way.
When I did try leaving in 2017, I couldn’t find a job that wouldn’t exacerbate my pains, and I ran out of money and came back to work for my brother in law doing electrical. I pushed myself for full time and in two months, that was it. I pushed myself too hard, and the pains have never calmed back down to…meh…sort of…kind of…a little bit better.
I finally got out of a long relationship which I had thought was going to last until my death. I was resigned to an unhappy, unfulfilled fate. Then I got out, and boy has it been hard. But worth it! SO WORTH IT.
I am myself again. I would be honored, if this is what you need, to help you find that in your own life as well.
I should have left a long long time ago, but I am my father’s son, and he basically lived the same kind of life with my mother. So one could say it’s a curse.
Anyway, there’s a lot of things I live with from this marriage that I’d like to forget. Like witnessing two of my son’s suicide attempts and his case workers completely ignoring me when I tried to get help for both of them. “Why doesn’t she love me?”, I still hear those words a lot, and I still see images of things that never happened a lot.
Erf…I better not say more, I’ve been eating the wrong things today and am having a hell of a time breathing. Back hurts in several spots, entire body feels weighted down, and I’m so dizzy…Yeesh! Can’t concentrate very well.
Just re-read this, and it’s very much an over-simplification…O_o, and I had hoped to not over-talk…Yeesh!
It’s okay man. I don’t mind reading a few paragraphs.
Sorry that I missed this comment - for some reason I was just checking for responses on my other comment first and was thinking you’d dropped the thread.
But maybe it’s fortunate, because by reading this now I saw your edit too.
I keep forgetting, but I do have a TIN of a Sole Proprietor business from a job that I attempted to do. Though, it was for escorting oversize loads. I could always get a business loan and pray like hell that I could get a business going in some far off city. 🤔
Also, I assume this is something where you don’t feel safe just leaving when your wife is there.
It helps me to understand what precisely is the mechanism by which this would go wrong, if you just told her “I’m leaving”.
Can you describe that? The reason why it has to be when she’s away?
Even if it’s psychological, it’s worth articulating.
I can connect you with people who run men’s groups online, if that would be helpful for you in establishing a support network.
The key thing to remember is that you are worth it. You’re worth causing trouble and making waves over. I’m willing to dedicate some time and energy to helping you. I don’t have much to spare. Mostly connections and knowledge are what I can offer though, moreso than time and energy.
I finally got out of a long relationship which I had thought was going to last until my death. I was resigned to an unhappy, unfulfilled fate. Then I got out, and boy has it been hard. But worth it! SO WORTH IT.
I am myself again. I would be honored, if this is what you need, to help you find that in your own life as well.
This is possible! At least, I’ve seen it described in other people’s setups. Having the integrated GPU should help in this case.
If I remember correctly, you need to make sure the vm shuts down properly so that it shuts down the graphics card properly. Then you can unload the vfio-pci module and load the correct module for your card.
Or worse if he does, how do you prove to all the anti-money-laundering watchdogs you got free money from a genie? Will you be able to gain control over your instantly conviscated money in 30 days?
No one ever wanted to work motherfucker. That’s why we’re fucking paid to be here. If you weren’t paying us we wouldn’t fucking be here. But you pay us the bare fucking minimum and expect us to work like we’re paid immense luxury wages.
Take a sandy brick and insert it as a suppository.
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