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undefined_variable , to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic

So, folks, when a combination of autistic shutdown and a major depressive episode due ongoing stress hits you hard, when that final little (or not so little) straw yet again lands on your back... Do you have someone to turn to for help, you can count on?

Two of my closest peeps are dealing with some heavy poopoo themselves, so ain't gonna bother them, and not much they could do either, I recon. Just shut down totally for a couple of hours, like lights out, nobody working in the head office (the butterfly meme here with "Is this dissociating?) Woke up now, and I have no clue what to do, who to turn to (and yes, I've had social workers and nurses and all kinds of professional contacts, but alas, with this particular straw, nobody seems to be able or rather willing to help). Also, is there an "Actually Depressed" group? Seriously, if someone knows a good peer support chat for depression/the worse kind of depression, fling me a PM or something. My old one has pretty much died, no pun intended...

VoxofGod ,
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@undefined_variable @innervisioner @actuallyautistic

A lot was done for me because of EMDR. I was able to get past some trauma and at least be able to understand the scope of it.

And de-trigger it and teach me that mechanism so I could develop it through my life

haui , to actuallyautistic

Being @actuallyautistic and for me means I often get told the following, initially:

„No! You‘re wrong! What a shit take! You have no idea what you‘re talking about! Stop the drugs, man!“ and the like.

After some discussion, people say:

„I have not thought of it this way. I got you wrong. We should actually consider doing it your way. You seem to have deeper insight than the average person.“

This often makes me question my place in this world. Anyone else?

VoxofGod ,
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@haui @actuallyautistic

Blamed for getting it right, and gas lit about it for as long as everyone is still wanting to believe the old facts

And then once everyone has been able to put it into words that they either can or must accept, erasure of you because it was just too stressful to have to deal with that person

Change is not fun for most everybody

And you end up having to shut your head down and not see it, because others don't want to.

It's a life, not necessarily fun or real though

JeremyMallin , to actuallyautistic
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A thing I don't get about (one of many things)

Why does everyone talk about the weather shortly after greeting each other?

"Um? Yes, I too went outside. That's how we both got here."

Did they think you didn't notice on the way over? 🤔

@actuallyautistic

VoxofGod ,
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@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic

I think the words are very secondary It's about being yourself and vibing your vibe close to someone else so that that person can vibe your vibe a little bit as well

JeremyMallin , to actuallyautistic
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I was well into adulthood when I finally figured out why no bath towel ever seems absorbent enough.

  1. I'm ; so, any moisturev at all on my skin greatly bothers me.

  2. Skin soaks up water like a sponge. Even if you remove all the surface moisture, some water absorbed by the skin still makes its way back out to the surface.

  3. Most bath towels truly are awful regardless.

@actuallyautistic

VoxofGod ,
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@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic linen towels rock

Sci_Fi_FanGirl , to actuallyautistic German
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A few weeks ago, someone asked me what makes me happy or what I enjoy doing. I said, among others, that I liked playing the guitar very much, but hadn't done it in a while. Couldn't say why I hadn't.

This bothered me. I thought about it and finally found out why I had stopped: I had played something for a friend and felt very ashamed afterwards. Why did I do it in the first place? Why this song? How could I even think it was worth showing?

Can't seem to get over it.

@actuallyautistic

VoxofGod ,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic

This is another great example of how our world is so upside down

Singing dancing art in general is done for

Y
O
U

To find that happiness that you can't find any other way that peace

The thing is, especially when you get good at finding the peace, others want to be around it

But now in this world where you have to justify your existence by money, the question is whether or not you are good enough to perform?

Totally backwards

Every performance is perfect

VoxofGod ,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic

You're preaching to the choir there...

About any question the reason I have to speak so forcefully about this stuff is because the voices in my head are constantly trying to persuade me that I'm wrong about that

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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic

And I'm an old theater horse

In my fourth decade of professional performing

btaroli , to actuallyautistic
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I was in a weird null space this past weekend. I knew I had things I wanted to get to but just had literally no drive to do much. I did manage a few things but these were in the evening.

Sometimes I think my pattern is that I’m more productive when there are literally no people around that I know of. It’s not that they’re talking to me, but the very prospect of having to expend energy interacting with or avoiding them switches my drive off.

@actuallyautistic

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@HaelusNovak @btaroli @actuallyautistic

This stuff can be cruel and the wrong type of person can take it the wrong way and the wrong type of person can use it to their advantage

Marlena Dietrich wanted to go to the opera so she asked a vocal teacher of mine

He picked her up she got in the cab and said, "Tell me when we're 5 minutes away"

She had a very blank face until he told her. At which time she brightened it up

Inside the Opera, tell me when we're 5 minutes from the end
Same thing...

VoxofGod ,
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@HaelusNovak @btaroli @actuallyautistic

She lifted her a whole face with a little bit of a smile and bright eyes and etc to get rid of resting bitch face

RBF for short

I struggle with this as well in many different ways

I can be in pain and have to mask it or people feel uncomfortable

I can be scared/lonely/angry same thing

But that smile thing can help if I know that I am being watched and there's a passive way of doing it without using star wattage

There are many quick tricks one can..

VoxofGod ,
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@HaelusNovak @btaroli @actuallyautistic employ to project and engaged content face.

If you're not content people start to worry about you and about the general vibe etc

So like I said a little bit of a half smile nostrils flared, keeping the upper lip above the bottom of the upper teeth.

And spending enough time training the bottom lip to rest above the upper teeth as well

If your ombiture(sp? Mouth posture) is not active/high one look like you're frowning, two, it makes your lips deflate 🙏

EVDHmn , to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic
If anyone doesn’t mind much I have a random question!
Not so much a poll, but does anyone else sometimes have the problem of seeing things from too many angles, i was wondering if it worsens by expanding perceptions. I don’t mean in a hallucinations way, it’s just like they kinda contour in almost like a dataset, of theoretical, probability etc.or what could that be like, what could cause that, I know for myself it’s difficult. But rewarding in many ways. Please and thank you

VoxofGod ,
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@EVDHmn @actuallyautistic I argue with standard tests all the time.

And have arrived at a place where I factor in the fact that I have thought so much about this issue that is time for me to realize that whatever choice I make it will probably be wrong

VoxofGod ,
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@EVDHmn @actuallyautistic My dog is named for a Dominican nun... And one of the things that she say about being accurate and making the choices that we decide were correct in retrospect, is that the best you can get is to a place where you are saying to yourself... I think this is right?

lexx3000 , (edited ) to actuallyautistic German
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@actuallyautistic i keep seeing here hyperfixation on being "extremely organised" as a definitely autistic trait, while messy being assigned to adhd and i'm (adult diagnosed) living with a diagnosed in a childhood person and we're messy as hell, especially in combination while neither of us suspect adhd and it's just very annoying to have it as a given here, does anyone share this even?

EDIT: removed ocd organised as it keeps being misread, replaced it with hyperfixation

VoxofGod ,
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@PatternChaser @lexx3000 @actuallyautistic

This is one area where I am definitely bipolar... Part of the time I am excellently organized, and what have you. It's when I have most of my spoons.

And then when in meltdown or burnout I have fewer I organize one particular thing that I'm focusing on and then let everything else slide

If it's a really heavy burnout I cannot clean for months

VoxofGod , to actuallyautistic
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@petelittle1970 @marytzu @vixencore @autism101 @actuallyautistic
Didn't think you were...

This was a response to Mary (at least I think it was Mary? The other conversant in thread)

autism101 , to actuallyautistic
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Walmart is starting sensory friendly hours this Friday from 8-10 a.m. every day in all US stores.


@actuallyautistic
https://nypost.com/2023/11/07/business/walmarts-sensory-friendly-hours-aim-to-help-shoppers-with-adhd-ptsd-overhead-radio-off-lights-dimmed/

VoxofGod ,
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@autism101 @actuallyautistic wouldn't it be nice if they turned off the music outside of their stores so that the fellow divergent people that are unhoused could get a decent night's sleep?

MatthewKay , to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic I’ve only been here a day or so. Damn, what a lot of fucking drama I’m seeing. Is it always like this?

VoxofGod ,
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@Kencf618033 @nddev @kkffoo @MatthewKay @actuallyautistic

Lawn order

fictionalbutnot , to actuallyautistic
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Anyone familiar with the S.E.P. drive from Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy?
I think all this "social lubricant" allistics use is the social equivalent to that, and a lot of the social anxiety that we people feel is that we can actually see and feel this S.E.P. field (and through it).
We end up right about most of what we read and predict, but we're told we're wrong.
Constant gaslighting will make anyone feel what we feel.

@actuallyautistic

VoxofGod ,
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@fictionalbutnot @actuallyautistic

Absolutely I'm saying this more and more these days... I work really hard at seeing things, because it's hard for me to filter them out anyway so I look and I try to understand and I'm generally pretty shockingly accurate

People in my orbit tend to not believe me unless they are not allistic and not family

One of the reasons I like posting on Mastodon and I used to like posting on Twitter is because I post random things people think are crazy/link back

Susan60 , to actuallyautistic
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@bike @VoxofGod @admin @neuralex @PossiblyAutistic @Jobob @roryreckons @actuallyautistic That’s where Pilates is good, for core muscles. We do it with a physio, who tailors exercises to our specific needs.

VoxofGod , (edited )
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@Susan60 @bike @admin @neuralex @PossiblyAutistic @Jobob @roryreckons @actuallyautistic

We only get about 20% of our oxygen from breathing.

The rest is from our skin

Breath is much more important for posture than it is for oxygen. It mostly just soups up the oxygen levels right before it goes to the brain like a carburetor

When one is breathing correctly one has a dynamic conversation with the body and its strengths and ailments and repairs.

Diaphragm is mostly there compressing organs

VoxofGod ,
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@mikey @Susan60 @bike @admin @neuralex @PossiblyAutistic @Jobob @roryreckons @actuallyautistic

Interesting, I am quoting Valborg Wärbeck-Svärdstrom in her book uncovering the voice

The book been around for many decades as a gold standard for singing and breathing technique

Schools have been built.

And then there's the thing about can can girls suffocating from paint on their skin

But thanks for your info

VoxofGod ,
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@llPK @Fluse @Susan60 @bike @admin @neuralex @PossiblyAutistic @Jobob @roryreckons @actuallyautistic

Blood is pretty close to the skin surface our largest organ....

VoxofGod ,
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@llPK @Fluse @Susan60 @bike @admin @neuralex @PossiblyAutistic @Jobob @roryreckons @actuallyautistic

A birth control diaphragm and breathing diaphragm are two different things

The diaphragm is not an impenetable barrier between organs and lungs It helps displace the organs so that more air can enter the lungs

There are several bands each one uniquely addressing different organs

So if the tension part of an inhale displaces the organs down, it enables our intercostals to relax / sternum rise

ScriptFanix , to actuallyautistic
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When they speak about the Israel Vs Palestine conflict in the news, I just zone out. My brain just refuses to process that information. Do my fellow @actuallyautistic friends do the same?

VoxofGod ,
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@ScriptFanix @actuallyautistic for me, that is practice for the news, period.

It is designed to trigger fear anger greed envy

To hide the truth

To let The people who are doing horrible things get away with it because you're distracted elsewhere

VoxofGod ,
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@russellmcormond @ScriptFanix @actuallyautistic the Churchill drawn borders were put in place to ensure perpetual warfare in the region

PossiblyAutistic , to actuallyautistic

Let's try the AQ, at https://embrace-autism.com/autism-spectrum-quotient/#test

@actuallyautistic

VoxofGod ,
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@admin @Susan60 @neuralex @PossiblyAutistic @Zumbador @Jobob @roryreckons @actuallyautistic

See? This is science

VoxofGod ,
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@Susan60 @admin @neuralex @PossiblyAutistic @Zumbador @Jobob @roryreckons @actuallyautistic

Well... Haven't you heard? We are all connected telepathically It's like 100 monkeys learn it the whole population of monkeys around the world knows

CynAq , to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic

I wanted to write a bloggish post about the etymology of the word autism, and I wanted to be precise as to how the word was coined.

The wikipedia article for "the history of autism" naturally came up first, with this disclaimer I'll attach.

It struck me as funny and slightly ironic that an article about autism was deemed "too long to read and navigate with too many overly lengthy quotations".

I wonder how the community feels about it.

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@CynAq @Dr_Obvious @actuallyautistic

Don't you love it when you give them all the information they ask you for and then you get a bad faith refutation that is even more convoluted than their first illogical non sequitur?

nddev , to actuallyautistic
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Are you still keeping quiet about your autism? Well, maybe not as quiet as you think.

Helen was chatting to a friend today about something I'd done. The friend immediately said, "Oh, that's obviously the autism." We've never told a soul about my autism, but this friend has an autistic son and she saw it straight away.

So just be aware that your secret may be out.

@actuallyautistic @allautistics

VoxofGod ,
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@youronlyone @nddev @actuallyautistic @allautistics I'm pretty sure that Netflix makes it impossible to see this particular series with a VPN

cynaq , (edited ) to actuallyautistic
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I just did that test.

I went in blind and didn't think I'd score too high because as far as I understand what monotropism proposes, I didn't think it fit my profile very well. I tried to answer the questions as accurately as I could, without overthinking.

Well...

The result says I'm more monotropic than 73% of autistic people and 98% of allistic people.

I guess I was misunderstanding what monotropism would feel like, if these results are anywhere near accurate, because I'm quite surprised, to say the least.

Would anyone else like to chime in and discuss this with me a bit? This result was not at all what I was expecting.

@actuallyautistic

Edit: this is the questionnaire https://dlcincluded.github.io/MQ/

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@cynaq @actuallyautistic

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OutOfExile_IDR_Voice , (edited ) to disability
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Stigmatude: The attitude personified by lack of understanding and acceptance of people living with invisible disabilities and mental illness, that ableists and many others perpetuate. –OutOfExile_IDR

Disabled people are real... Real cool. "Mr. Cool" – David Pate-150 on tik-tok is living proof. Dude's a rockstar!! Let's remove the stigmatude for all.

Check out David's moves:
https://www.tiktok.com/

David's page:
https://www.tiktok.com/@davidpate150

Link to the video below:
https://www.tiktok.com/

& is
@disability

VoxofGod ,
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@OutOfExile_IDR_Voice @Yak @disability

For many chronic conditions, the stigma is statistically, the most fatal aspect of the disease

Capitalism relies on stigma to control everyone without spare capital

JeremyMallin , to actuallyautistic
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I wonder why there is a high comorbidity of issues and . 🤔

I myself have had strong acid reflux since my mid twenties.


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@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic I've often thought it was because it's a neurological condition and the gut is a neurological entity

clouddweller , to actuallyautistic
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My friends’ gf is the mother of an autistic child and she often uses this fact to discount and discredit my self dx, which I feel is unfair because I can’t afford to seek dx and would if I could. She keeps suggesting I get back on meds for depression and anxiety that we’re really not helping my disorders so much as obliterating my sex drive and thus destroying the relationship I was in. I don’t know how to politely tell her I’ve tried the things she has recommended and they didn’t work for me, without sounding like im just discounting it out of hand…. Or being obstinate. But somethings don’t have a cure and Im ok with that. I just don’t want to be judged. @actuallyautistic

VoxofGod ,
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@clouddweller @actuallyautistic I think that sometimes people do not feel comfortable with someone else's difficulties and just want the problem to go away so they throw spaghetti on the ceiling

It can actually be forced therapy, imo

You have a good synopsis and understanding of what happened, clearly from your toot

To distill that further into one sentence of mirthful laughter that has a bit of humility in truth is really good at silencing stuff

Signed a lifelong diverticuloid

VoxofGod ,
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@yourautisticlife @clouddweller @actuallyautistic

I have lost so many friendships because I didn't understand that before, feeling like the best way to get over something is to just move on and or ignore the pain That was partially because I was living with diverticulosis and had no other options/didn't know I had it.
Now I try to understand and hopefully benefit someone's framing by insight humble enough to be too weird to be false: 'i was there, dahlink'

hosford42 , to actuallyautistic
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I'm . The sound of the train blowing its horn as it passes my house makes me cover my ears in pain. But the throbbing bass of the engine that causes a deep pressure in my chest from the vibration makes me feel happy.

When I was a kid, I used to crank up the bass of my parents' stereo and sit directly against the woofer to feel that pressure. They would always yell at me to turn it down. I've always loved that feeling.


@actuallyautistic
@neurodiversity

VoxofGod , (edited )
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@Adventurer @Tooden @hosford42 @actuallyautistic @neurodiversity

Especially if I am needing to go into the Andy roddick towel over my head space and shut out everything, I put on television I like and wouldn't mind watching again

Not necessarily television I would love or that would move me just something with characters or vibes that I didn't mind

And I loop it and get stoned and sleep

I slept to Voyager for years

Also to the song of Bernadette, and our Lady of Guadalupe telenovela

Now,

VoxofGod ,
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@Adventurer @Tooden @hosford42 @actuallyautistic @neurodiversity things that are bothering me that I might fix. Prayer really works/ if I'm having a problem sleeping, doing all of that stuff tidying up getting food ready dog walk etc It's an excellent system to tire me out and to get things off my mind. After that's done, or I'm tired and my mind is racing a rosary is the best sleep aid I'm also louder than everyone when I decide to sing, so a nice bit of Wotan, I can settle the air and me.
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