Playing football during PE class a lifetime ago. I’m not sure what happened exactly but I got knocked out and regained consciousness face down in the grass.
You’ve identified a problem that you want to fix (willingness to do effort for yourself versus for others) but you haven’t identified the root cause. This is basically one of the situations that therapy is best equipped to help with. It sounds like maybe a self-worth issue but I’m not a therapist so that’s about as valuable as a lace umbrella.
Not sure - I don’t feel like I undervalue myself (although I guess that’s exactly what someone in my situation would say lmao). I just don’t find motivation in doing something solely for myself, and am instead invested in things that I think the community could benefit from. An example would be wanting to run a Public Searx/Invidious instance
a problem you have within yourself, that you’ve identified you want to change
a problem you don’t know how to change
You don’t need to have deep trauma or self-harming tendencies for therapy to be of value to you! But it does indeed sound like I’m off the mark on the self-worth thing. (That’s why I’m not a therapist).
Worst case scenario, you have a few sessions and don’t find anything to sink your teeth into and you’ve wasted a few hours Better case scenario, you find a root cause or at least a path to a better way of doing things.
But hey, I tell just about everyone to get therapy :P
If you don’t want to spend money you could try DIY it but if someone will show you how to use tools for introspective like journaling and emotional averness it will be much easier to start.
You wrote in other comment that:
I want to be busy.
Maybe you should do the opposite. Be bored and see what your mind will do with boredom. Try to do it for a decent about of time like an hour. Maybe you will discover something surprising about yourself.
A lot of the channels I like have already been listed (more than once) by others, so I will just mention my top current favorites and few that haven’t been mentioned.
SuperfastMatt -He’s a former Tesla engineer that hobby builds custom vehicles like an offroad Dodge Viper and a land-speed car
HyperspacePirate -he’s a guy building his own diy cryocooler while doing all sorts of at-home refrigeration refinement utilizing off the shelf materials.
Max Miller -He’s an educational cook that seems to speak to the former Alton Brown crowd.
ThisOldTony -He’s a pair of machinist hands 🙌 that shows people the fundamentals of how to work with metal while also being entertaining
Extractions&Ire -He’s a mad chemist from the southern hemisphere
The Thought Emporium -He’s an amateur mad bio-engineer who among other things is working to create an array of rat neurons that he can teach to play Doom
Nilered is a mad chemist from the northern hemisphere that also barely makes content anymore so I can’t list him
I also love most of the content creators that are apart of Nebula.
Hosting FOSS on infrastructure is what I want to dedicate my life towards outside of work. I just need to find motivation to actually do things for myself (which will greatly help me) instead of looking for the dopamine hit when I think I’m doing something that will help the community
Write a little bash script that fixes something that causes you grief. Put it up on GitHub with a README.md file that explains what it does, why and how.
Better for Linux? I’m not sure I would say it is. Better for the world in general? When you compare things like power consumption, you can definitely see that in some use cases (the average user), ARM is superior. But for Linux? Maybe by default owing to the fact that it’s more modern. As for RISC-V, the core is open source and “all” the extensions are proprietary, so it’s not as open source as it pretends to be. But it’s definitely better than what we’re currently accustomed to as mainstream.
i’ve had the same thought lately. the common arm design approach around the bootloader seems to turn old Android phones and tablets into e-waste sooner than necessary, in theory they could all run Linux and be useful for another ten years. but it’s hard enough to port mainline Linux to Android devices, and almost impossible to get all the included hardware working properly
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