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Tim_McTuffty , 20 hours ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 243 , Thursday 27/06/2024

Up around 6am after a disturbed night.

Achieved a couple of things today managed to descale the coffee machine , I was gonna clean it but that is not one of my favourite jobs so I fixed the kitchen tap which has been sticking for a while instead.

I also managed to rearrange the appointment with Beth, the MH Practitioner.

The sock aid that the Occupational Therapist recommended arrived today, I am officially old !
It doesn’t help that I went for the one with the nice fleecy lining rather than the cheaper plastic ones 🤦‍♂️
Today the sock aid , next week the zimmer frame!

On the whole today has been a much better day than yesterday.

Final Thoughts.

Life is such a rollercoaster, the best we can do is hold on for dear life !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
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Tim_McTuffty , 3 days ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 240 , Monday 24/06/2024

TL:DR

Up around 6am having slept fairly well.

Sorted out the bins & various other chores & then settled down to catch up on Fediverse frolics!

So two things drifted across my mind today:

Firstly I was preparing salad yesterday & as is my occasional wont I mistook the tip of the ring finger on my left hand for a radish & merrily sliced into it with a very sharp knife!
Understand that this was not a deep or in any way heath threatening cut, it was a tiny cut that , after about 12 hours with a plaster round it is more or less healed.
My point is this , it hurt like buggery & bled like I’d hit an artery! What is it about ones fingers that this should be? I mean I know that I’m on blood thinners for the old Ectasia but really you see folks on ER with their limbs hanging off who don’t bleed as much as a when you cut the tip of your finger! Also I know that that ones finger tips are full of nerves but come on - a little sense of proportion wouldn’t go amiss !

Secondly Brits , like my good self, are renowned the world over for our favourite topic of conversation , namely the weather! Hey we live (currently) in a temperate climate & have a lot of weather!!
I say we converse, lets be honest here what we do generally is complain about it , we have mastered the art of chronic bitching in fact ! It’s either too cold , too wet , too foggy & rarely too hot!
For the last 2 days the country was nearly silent (apart from the footy fans , but let’s not go there!) why - because for 2 days we passed thru the eye of the storm (pun intended) & hit 20ºc , with sunny weather !
This is pretty much the ideal temperature for your average Brit, so we were, temporarily stumped! How could one complain?
Today the temperature continued up so normal service was resumed & we explored the unusual concept of hot , dry (if muggy) weather!

Struggling to concentrate on pastimes today again, I need to get back in there on the gaming front, the ‘Adrift’ NMS expedition needs completing before I run out of time !

Final Thoughts.

Summer is finally here, warm weather, salads & the sounds of the local brass band practicing in the background. Still there’s bound to be something to complain about 😆.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Susan60 , 15 days ago to actuallyautistic

I watched the first episode of this yesterday. I started watching Love on the Spectrum before I self-realised, but unsurprisingly, became irritated by the way people were infantilised. I did like Michael however & I think this show has promise. 🤞🏼@actuallyautistic

https://www.abc.net.au/news/2024-06-06/michael-theo-stars-in-new-abc-drama-comedy-austin/103937648?utm_source=abc_news_app&utm_medium=content_shared&utm_campaign=abc_news_app&utm_content=other

Tim_McTuffty , 16 days ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 227 , Tuesday 11/06/2024

Up around 5:30, breakfast & chores ensued.

Had to play taxi for Mrs S. so that I could have the car to go to the GPs appointment, I would normally walk, but given the gout flare up last week I chickened out!

This morning I went to see the Doctor who sorted my ASD assessment out for me, that man is a Saint!
So different to his colleague who was - ‘Nope cannot do anything for anyone at any time , certainly not if it costs money! ‘

Today was the first time in a very long time that I have come out of Drs appointment smiling!
We are on with sorting out the ADHD assessment, there are a couple of forms I have to fill out & a couple of forms he has to fill out then it’s a case of sending them off & waiting.

I am seeing a Social Prescriber tomorrow afternoon (I’m telling you Dr S (I know !! But hey that’s his initial 😆 ) is a freakin magician when he puts his mind to it! ) to set up a care plan .. dunno owt about that but I’m sure that I will know a lot more tomorrow !

Dr S. is also referring me to the Primary MH Practitioner - Beth - who I saw before the whole ASD journey started & indeed was the one that set my feet upon this path. I misjudged her last time when I thought she had just bundled me off to 3rd parties. I will approach our next appointment with more knowledge & I hope that she doesn’t hold a grudge.

Dr S. has also forwarded my diagnosis letter to the Community MH team , he’s not sure if this will help but at this point he is reaching out for me to all those who might be able to help!

And out of the blue my journey moves into top gear again!

14:00 - forms for ADHD referral are done, just need to drop them off.

Played NMS this afternoon, ticked off a few achievements then had to go & pick up Mrs S.

I dropped off the forms for the ADHD referral en-route - I’d like to say I jogged front the car to the receptionists desk & back, but the truth was much, much more ungainly!

Made a ham salad for tea with some new potatoes , it was a bit of a challenge because herself does not believe in buying anything more than she absolutely has to to feed herself. Hey ho, for all that it wasn’t too bad.

Finished the evening off with a bit of TV & catching up on here.

Final Thoughts.

A dear friend lost a close family member today, I won’t tag them , but they & those that share TLs with us both know who I mean. Lots of love my friend , know you are in my thoughts. 🫂 🫶

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 18 days ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 225 , Sunday 09/06/2024

Had a nice long lay in today, up at around 8am.

My stomach survived trial by pizza so a normal breakfast was enjoyed.

Quiet day , mostly catching up on here.

Binge watched ‘Red Eye’ (the recent ITV series) exciting stuff !

So this is why I rarely step in to discussions on SM.
My NT nature makes me blunt, it also sometimes makes the reality of a situation very clear to me.
This is the case with climate change.
Don’t get me wrong , I am fully aware of the problem, its causes, in my own way I do my little bit to fight the good fight.
I made a comment today, to the effect that I did not believe that efforts to tame the oil industry would succeed, I was politely, but firmly told to shut up & bugger off.
Fine, I will know better next time, that this is a polarised area of discussion & those that point out realities are not tolerated by either side. I shall hold my peace & watch what happens.
I could turn this diary into a socio/political platform to air my views but I’m not going to, it is not for that. However when folks are intolerant I feel that that deserves a mention.

Final Thoughts.

Humaning is hard, that’s why am Squirrel!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 20 days ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 223 , Friday 07/06/2024

Up around 6am again , my foot was much better but without the codeine to balance the side effects of the Colchicine my digestive system went on the rampage!

Lots of exercise up & down the stairs today - it wasn’t pretty.

Come tea time & I was able to keep a glass of water inside me, so soup & a bread roll has been consumed - results being awaited as we speak (7:35pm)

Hopefully all will be well & I can have a naughty pizza for tea tomorrow !

Final Thoughts.

I am so glad my foot is so much better, that was a very unpleasant experience !

Special thanks to all who have supported me with love & laughs ! 🤗🥰

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 28 days ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 215 , Thursday 30/05/2024

Up around 6:30am today.

Breakfast & chores followed.

I was really tired today, & kept falling asleep at odd moments.

We went wild this evening had had pulled pork in a BBQ sauce with chips & sweetcorn for tea, livin the dream here in deepest darkest Yorkshire !

Final Thoughts.

The world is such a tough place at the moment, my heart goes out to those sharing my TL who are struggling thru far worse than I have to put up with!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 1 month ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 198 , Monday 13/05/2024

Up early for some reason beyond this simple squirrels reasoning.
Tidied up after herself, did my chores & went for a walk in the warm early summer sunshine !

I cannot seem to find the impetus to get stuff done, I work best to a deadline & the only person pushing me at the moment is me, which would be fine but I have minimal motivation levels at the moment.

I’m wondering from day to day like a leaf blowing in the breeze, no direction, no purpose.
At least the days are warm now & a lot sunnier, saving energy is easier , my lone mission to drag our energy bills down is less onerous in the summer.

Final Thoughts.

I suspect that I am going through a depressive episode, I hope I come through to the other side soon.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 1 month ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 191 , Monday 06/05/2024

So the plan for this morning was, since it was a bank holiday , was a nice long lay in …
I forgot to change my meds reminders 🙄🤦‍♂️

My MiL is still in hospital , waiting for a CT scan, currently no eta , ‘later this week ‘ to quote a spurge in the know 🙄🤦‍♂️

Pottered thru the day , a bit of Fo4 , a bit of reading, a bit of TV.
EDFitis is still a thing.

Watching ‘Argyle’ so far so ‘hmmmm’
Nice plot twist

Final Thoughts.

Back to ‘normal’ tomorrow, this year is slipping past at an astonishing rate of knots !!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 191 , Monday 06/05/2024

So the plan for this morning was, since it was a bank holiday , was a nice long lay in …
I forgot to change my meds reminders 🙄🤦‍♂️

My MiL is still in hospital , waiting for a CT scan, currently no eta , ‘later this week ‘ to quote a spurge in the know 🙄🤦‍♂️

Pottered thru the day , a bit of Fo4 , a bit of reading, a bit of TV.
EDFitis is still a thing.

Watching ‘Argyle’ so far so ‘hmmmm’
Nice plot twist

Final Thoughts.

Back to ‘normal’ tomorrow, this year is slipping past at an astonishing rate of knots !!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 1 month ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 188 , Saturday 04/05/2024

Up at around 07:30 to a day that promised to be filled with more difficulty than I anticipated it might yesterday morning.

To set the scene:
Last night my MiL , who is very elderly & quite frail but still lives at home with the help of carers , had a fall.
We were contacted by her carers when they found her on the floor as they arrived to make her comfortable for the night.
We live about an hour away by car & both Mrs S. & I had had a few drinks so we had to depend on the carers to sort out getting an ambulance for my MiL who they suspected had broken her leg.
We’ll skip lightly over the fight we had , over the phone , with her to get her to go - she fears the NHS staff might bump her off 🙄🤦‍♂️ .

So we went to bed with all this hanging over our heads.

Thusly we arrive at Saturday morning:
The hospital has called , apparently while in a lot of pain my MiL has just got a sprained ankle. This is good !
They are sending her home later , but Mrs S. has a somewhat fraught relationship with her mum so while we are on standby in case anything untoward happens she is letting the hospital sort out returning her Mum home.
This sits uncomfortably with me, I feel that herself should make some effort here.
Don’t get me wrong she gets her mums shopping once a week , & see’s to her administrative well being, but when a loved one (even a semi estranged one) is in distress I think that one should step up.
Once I would have pushed the point, but I no longer have the spoons to deal with the resulting fallout, so I will keep my thoughts to myself & let the situation play out as it will.

We spent an uneasy afternoon watching TV, waiting for the phone to go, finally got a a call late this afternoon, turns out that they are keeping my MiL in hospital, sounds like they suspect a possible broken hip & have scheduled a CT scan for tomorrow .

Watching the last of the Terminator franchise (Dark Fate) while eating Chinese takeaway.

Final Thoughts.

Sometimes plans change in a heartbeat due to reasons way out of our control, once again I will spend an uneasy night wondering if my MiL is ok.

I wish that Mrs S. & her mum had a better relationship , it disturbs me at a fairly fundamental level that herself is yet to check in with her mum either in person or on the phone.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 1 month ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 184 , Monday 29/04/2024

Monday already!

Up at just before 6 , dizziness made itself known because why not !

Walkies nonetheless , even though walkies at the moment is merely an unpleasant means to an end.

FO4 was the order of the day , Mrs S. offered to go clothes shopping with me this afternoon but I was just not up for mixing with my fellow humans today.

Final Thoughts.

Once again the plans I made for getting stuff done in a day have fallen by the wayside , I guess I got out for a walk & got my basic shores done so it wasn’t a total write off.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 2 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 177 , Tuesday 23/04/2024

TL:DR

Up at around 6:15am, Mrs S. kindly let me have a lay in.
Did breakfast then a quick torture session aka walk. 2 thoughts on that :

1. The weather witches lied - it was not due to rain till around 10am, it rained that horrible fine stuff around 7:30 !
2. If my smart assed watch whinges at me in that snotty red tone about being ‘below the zone’ it’s gonna end badly for it !

You can tell I’m in a happy, well balanced mood today can’t you 😆

So got an email from Octopus says that a) they had updated the billing system to reflect the right tariffs & b) fixed the Gas meter (it’s not been transmitting) .

Have no proof about the tariffs yet but the gas meter isn’t showing on the IHD still 🙄🤦‍♂️

I wanted to play ESO this afternoon but could not pull the motivation together.

Finished the day watching some random thing that we recorded for herself.

Final Thoughts.

I feel like I am teetering on the edge of another bout of full on depression. The signs are all there, the exhaustion, the lack of motivation the lack of enjoyment in hobbies.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 2 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 176 , Sunday 21/04/2024

Sunday had been a quiet day, spent a decent portion of it on here, not that I’m addicted or anything. 😆

Dizzy spells are still a thing , sadly.

I have said it before & probably will do again , there are some truly lovely folks on here, we share our laughter, our pain & our fears . We teach each other & we bring new perspectives to each other !
The Fediverse is like no other SM & I love it here !

Continued with the Terminator fest this afternoon - Terminator Salvation this time.

Then a couple of Supernaturals to finish the day.

Final Thoughts.

Nothing deep or philosophical , just had a nice day .

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 2 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 172 , Thursday 18/04/2024

TL:DR Another day closer to the day I can simply rest.

Up at crack of sparrows fart to make Mrs S. her breakfast.
Emptied the dishwasher & hung up the laundry , then managed to get out for a walk in the sunshine.

I think I must be a serial ‘kind’ person. Don’t get me wrong, I can be just as nasty as anyone & I have perfected passive aggression into an art form - but I need to be really riled before these offensive weapons come into play.
But, & here’s the thing, I cannot help but do RAKs (random acts of kindness) especially for the ones I love.
For example I come home from a walk & find that Mrs S. has made her mid-morning snack & left the dishes for me. As I’m washing up I swear to myself that I will not make her lunch, no way, nope , nada !
Come lunchtime I will cave & make her lunch because that is who I am.
Or maybe I am just weak?

Yes I made her lunch 🙄🤦‍♂️

Just to rub it in, she finished at 16:45 & stayed upstairs ignoring me until … you guessed it , it was time for me to make tea when as if by magic she appeared! 😔

Final Thoughts.

The meek will not inherit the earth, we will simply be ground into the dust.

Off on a tangent here …
I wonder if its an ASD thing, a ‘normal’ thing or a ‘me’ thing that I wake up with a host of things I plan to do but by the time I’ve got to the other side of doing my daily chores & dealt with being triggered by herself I am completely de-motivated. I have no energy these days - even when it’s sunny (although I do have more energy on sunny days , just not enough) .

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 2 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 170 , Monday 15/04/2024

TL:DR

Up at quarter to Oh My Gawd (aka 05:45) this morning goit brutally abused by a super wet cat who came charging into the kitchen from out of the rain !

The day progressed as normal until about 10:30 when I worked up the nerve to chase EDF over the fact that rather than billing us for a month , as I expected they billed us for 2 weeks - just because !
I spoke to a nice lady who promised to sort it out & call back within about 20 minutes - still waiting at 8pm !

Went onto the web page & it seems they have cancelled all this years bills & (ignoring the fact that we have paid up to date as of the march bill ) want to charge us for the whole year to date - AGAIN !
I’m going to sort out this current billing crisis then up sticks & move to Octopus, who appear to be the least bad option currently.

Watched ‘The Bounty’ this afternoon to try & help me forget EDF for a while !

Succumbed to the temptation of pizza for tea , I needed comfort food !

Final Thoughts.

Please Nuggan don’t let this think with EDF drag on like it did last year , it might break me permanently if it does !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 2 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 165 , Wednesday 10/04/2024

TL:DR Well honestly I’ve had better days.

Was brave this morning, despite many misgivings & a general dislike (understatement of the century!!) of using the phone I made an appointment to go see the GP about my ASD assessment & my foot.

Foot - physio sorted for Friday .

ASD assessment was a joke !!
GP was determined that there was no further help forthcoming in the immediate future from the NHS.
He picked up on the fact that the Consultant suggested I approach the National Autistic Society & that was his main gambit.

The fact that the NAS , being a charity, cannot refer me for further assessments or treatment seemed to bypass his reasoning entirely. We also got the ,not unexpected, ‘oh I know nothing about Right to Choose’ This is exactly what the GP who referred me for the ASD Assessment said, I feel the Practice are very sadly lacking in their training! More to the point I believe that GPs want nothing to do with it because the costs come out if NHS budgets. It wouldn’t surprise me if they were not briefed to pretend it doesn’t exist!
I had thought that MH provision in the UK had improved - not so much it seems!!

So where we stand is : I am going to make a further appointment , this time with the GP who set up the RtC ASD Assessment, hopefully there will be a little more co-operation ! In the meantime I guess I can start investigating the NAS & the help they provide.

Why are MH services in the UK so very , very poor !

I am having a cheese & onion crisp butty for my lunch, I am aware that it is utterly unhealthy & guess what, I don’t care !

So because I have had a rubbish day and am super low on spoons Virgin have decided to bill me for next month on the full rate before I have had time to negotiate a new rate - guess what I’m doing tomorrow !

Also the printer is bust - probably needs a factory reset which is always fun 🙄🤦‍♂️

I am completely out of silverware of any form !!

So about an hour ago (17:30 ish) I realised that it is my Uncle & Aunt’s wedding anniversary on Friday!
This tipped me over the edge. I literally could not process what to do about it !

Mrs S. stepped in gave me a selection of cards , we picked one , I wrote it , it’s getting posted in the morning.

I feel physically ill.
I am nauseous, the dizziness is back, my brain doesn’t want to work, & the promise of a takeaway had to shelved because I now really can’t face food.
(Update: soup has been consumed ).

Final Thoughts.

I knew this journey would not be easy, but I really did not expect those tasked with helping me to make it worse !

All my fears & anxieties are reinforced by that GP. I am honestly wondering if it might not be easier to say ‘hey I know I’m ND ‘ & leave it at that.

So much for opening doors !

I am going to post this then vanish into the mist.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 2 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 155 , Sunday 31/03/2024

So another rough night , woke up fully around 7ish feeling distinctly unwell. Aches , chills , the bed was damp so must have sweated thru the night!

Officially self diagnosed with man flu around breakfast time when my body decided that it hated me in multiple ways.

Had a fab day today on Mastodon, loads of friends to have banter with helping me pass the day.

Had a ‘Supernatural’ fest to pass the day , only another 10 series to go!

Final Thoughts.

You lot are brilliant, it hurt to laugh but it was good to laugh!
Thank you for your company 🤗

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 3 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 151 , Wednesday 27/03/2024

TL:DR Sleepless nights, cats, robbing money grabbing corporations, & Jurassic Park fest ends.

Got a proper lay in this morning , thankfully because it was a rough night , much laying bed staring at the ceiling in the wee small hours !

I’m loosing ground on all fronts, mental , physical & exercise.

Up at around 7:30 am breakfast & then the thing I forget to put in my diary every day!
Sophie time - Sophie mog LOVES being brushed with her purple ‘zoom groom’ ™ brush -(other cat grooming brushes are undoubtedly available , but Sophie doesn’t love them ! ) .
She has learnt my routine & sits , semi patiently, waiting for me to get up to relocate to my recliner to drink my coffee . Then she ‘pounces’ or rather throws herself dramatically on her favourite spot & performs ‘dead cat on carpet ‘ looking at me pathetically until I cave (about 30 seconds - what can I say I’m weak ! ).
Then we have about 10 minutes or so of me brushing her, head to tail - ‘more on the head Dad, more on the head !!’
She will drop onto her side to regally allow me to brush her tummy & then will put her head in my hand as I brush under her chin - her absolute, total , best most favourite thing ever! The paws go then & the purring starts & we have to continue until she is sated, or risk the dirty looks & being grumbled at !
When she has had enough she gets up , settles into a seated position & lets me know, in no uncertain terms that she is finished with my services 😆 . Honestly I’m not a cat slave 😂.
We have to repeat this at tea time or we get none stop pestering till bedtime !

I got a major trigger this morning, I went to check the renewal quote for the insurance & I swear Admiral Insurance don’t want our business anymore!
I did not have the spoons to deal with the robbing bar-stewards today , herself managed a £100 ‘discount’ so I may leave it at that. We also got notification that the initial deal with Virgin is coming to an end, so I will need all my resources to deal with those extortionists!

We went out to lunch , gammon , egg , pineapple & chips helped restore some of my spoons as did the ride home thru glorious Yorkshire countryside!

We finished our JP fest this evening , it’s been a ‘turn your brain off’ blast !

Final Thoughts.

Sophie is a complicated soul, but she has that feline ability to drive one mad then melt ones heart. She & her sister Alice, in their own different ways , are my sanity!

I am a little overwhelmed at the moment because a lot of things are demanding my attention , I hope I can work thru them & come out the other side !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 3 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 150 , Tuesday 26/03/2024

TL:DR A little bit of everything & then some horticulture!

Up at 7am , breakfast & a couple of episodes of Qi to start the day.
Chores were completed & then got a little time to play NMS while Mrs S. went shopping.

Actually got round to doing something slightly different - repotted one of the Dragon Trees that have taken over upstairs.
It had outgrown its pot & gone a bit feral.
It’s in brand new , luxury accommodation & has been moved to the lounge, I’m expecting great things from it , I may use Crawley’s tactics !

Some Mastodon antics today - always enjoy engaging with you lovely lot !

We have worked our way thru to the 4th Jurassic Park movie - I’m loving this fest 😆.

Final Thoughts.

Everybody do the dinosaur 🎶🎵

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 3 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 137 , Wednesday 13/03/2024

Bit better weather for walking this morning, I left early because I needed to be outside & on my own.

Walked up to the village again , 3.6km in just under an hour, but I did stop a couple of times.

After cleaning up after herself I finally got breakfast just after 9.

Watched ‘The Martian’ one of my top movies, especially when I’m down.

Finished the afternoon with a bit of an NMS session, noticed that , on my main save, I have 4.5 billion credits ! I’m a billionaire 😜😂

Final Thoughts.

I’m getting more an more anxious about Friday, & simultaneously getting more & more reclusive.
I need to get my desk cleared again tomorrow - it may be a case of chucking all the junk on the floor out of sight!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 3 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 136 , Tuesday 12/03/2024

Managed to get out for a walk this morning , a shorter one as it was pissing down with rain. Just 2.6km but still enough for 30 minutes worth of decent exercise.

I have been on my own today, very on my own, I avoided & was avoided by all those I know.
I have a horrible feeling that I may have to go back on the dreaded anti-d meds, they make me feel sluggish & brain dead , but they do allow me to better integrate with society, although I’m no longer sure if that is my goal.

Finished the 2nd ,solo, run thru of the NMS Omega expedition, now all I have to do is figure out how to get the goodies back to my primary save !

Bit of TV & a bit of ESP & then off to bed.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 3 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 132 , Friday 08/03/2024

TL:DR Walking is on the way to becoming a daily thing. I realised today that folks I have told about being ASD are avoiding me !

Overslept this morning , managed to catch herself in passing as she left the house to go to the office.
Is it the sign of a healthy relationship that we see each other for about 3 hours a day, even when she’s working from home.

Went for a walk again today - got a new ‘short’ route to go fwd with. At 2.5km - about 4500 steps - it’s not dead long but there is a mix of terrain & some steep bits so it’s not a bad route at all. It should be fairly picturesque in the right conditions (so long as I look away from the new new housing estate! )

I have discovered something disconcerting, not upsetting per-se but defo disconcerting.
With the exception of the lovely Peeps on Mastodon, most of the older people I have told about my ASD have not been in touch since I told them.

I know a number of people on here are actively resisting assessment because of the fear of stigmatism but that has never been a problem for me (& still isn’t ). I am surprised at the fact that (in the case of my Uncle & Aunt & my Dad) folks that have known me literally all my life now want even less to do with me than they did before.

I’m a loner, always have been (with the exception of herself) , so never been that close to my family , certainly not since I moved away from my parents, but to not hear from any of the seniors (or indeed my friend across the road , who I told a few weeks ago) is, as I say, disconcerting.

Despite others reactions I am steadfast in my resolve to get a proper diagnostic assessment ,I NEED to know . Bollocks to what others think. If they think that I am suddenly different because I know why I am the way I am then that is on them!

Watched ‘The Godfather’ for the very first time (yes I know ! ) I can see why it is something of a cult movie.
Got Parts 2 & 3 on my movie radar.

Managed to squeeze in an hour or so of NMS in, wanted to finish Phase 2 of the rerun of Omega but got distracted , so I now have objectives in every phase complete , but only phase 1 completely finished.

Watching ‘Silent Witness’ with the help of a couple of pints of cider & a pizza.

Final Thoughts:

We like to think that 2024 western civilisation has reached the point where things like mental health stigmatisation are in the past. Sadly this is not the case.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 4 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 120 , Sunday 25/02/2024

TL:DR Sunday & the long , dark teatime of the soul!

Ach I’m not brave enough to say what I wanted to say, so we’ll go with the usual.

Up at 6 initially, chatted with CDP 🧚‍♀️ for a little while then dozed off till 8.

Had a nice NMS co-op session with my bestie which cheered up an otherwise banal day.

Spent the afternoon watching ‘Payback ‘ (the tv series as opposed to the movie) , I really wish I had the energy & motivation to do more, I feel like such a lazy git !

I desperately want a takeaway for my tea, but I am also well aware of my weight issues & recent lack of exercise so I will try my hardest to keep to a more healthy diet & resist the temptation !
Ended up compromising and making an emergency stew from a tin of stewing steak, a tin of mushrooms & some sweetcorn. It was ok with a bread roll. Hell knows how many killer calories there were .

Final Thoughts.

How do you like your squirrel - lightly roasted ?

I hope to try & get out for a walk tomorrow if the weather is nice 🤞

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 4 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 101 , Tuesday 06/02/2024

TL:DR Room 101 - I wanna throw the whole of existence out !

The early bird catches the CDP 🧚‍♀️ even if the reason for the bird being early is a sleepless night full of discomfort.

Felt fairly rubbish today , lot of pain & the codeine starting to give me a bad headache. Slept on & off for most of the day , although I managed to get some ESO in.

Had a nice chat with CDP 🧚‍♀️ this aftenoon which took the day up a couple of notches 😊

My hair hurts tonight which is generally a bad sign.

Will be making it an early night.

Final Thoughts.

Nope , nothing , nada , bugger all !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney , 4 months ago to actuallyautistic

Sensory overload.
Sound. Light. Even smells...
When I go out, I try to use my NC headphones as much as I can.
I have dark sunglasses to accompany me. And often wear a baseball cap as well.
Overload can also happen from socializing. It takes a lot out of me. Even with people that I care loads for.
Sometimes I just need "me time". Just me, a favorite activity and/or series on TV. No talking. No thinking. Just relaxing...

I think it's one of the more difficult things of my autism. I get overloaded too easily, and when I get to a meltdown, it's bad and takes even longer before I can recover.

Anyone recognize this? Any tips I haven't tried yet perhaps? 😊

#ActuallyAutistic

@actuallyautistic

Tim_McTuffty , 5 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 85 Sunday 21/01/24

TL:DR So many triggers, so little time.

Woke up early, but then went back to sleep - I need to sort out my sleep schedule , I am trying to please too many & do too much in too little time, & that is not working. I am not an early bird, I have been struggling to get to bed before 11pm & that means I’m not getting enough sleep getting up at 4 or 5am.
Also , before I was so ill after Christmas I could survive happily on a daily 6 hours , this no longer seems to be the case.

Herself has been her usual unthinking self , why bother checking that the this or that is done right- we can always depend on the house elf to correct any shortfalls.

Went out to get some walking trousers around 11 - I had not realised just how tubby I have got over Christmas, out of 5 sportswear shops I found 2 pairs of trousers that fit, & only one of those was acceptable. I cannot put into words how low my mood dropped at this revelation, my self image is as bad as it has ever been .

Ok so now I have to grasp the nettle & lose the weight , by what ever means, all other considerations are secondary, I HAVE to lose this weight.

I have chatted with CDP 🧚‍♀️ today and may have dragged her down with me for which I am so sorry for doing! Sometimes I wish there was a cure for PDD ( yeah sod chronic depression , one has to really persevere to end up with Persistent Depressive Disorder ! ) then I could

I had a venison & chestnut stew as the last meal of a condemned man tonight, from here on in only enough food to keep hunger at bay, a massive reduction in alcohol intake , a change to water being the drink of choice .

Final Thoughts.

Who needs to be happy anyway in this world of woe and tears ?

Storm Isha is not helping either !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 5 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 83 Friday 19/01/24

TL:DR Ups & downs.

So today was a reasonable day , up at 5 after nearly 7 hours of sleep.

Had a chat with my Bestie & then did chores & ticked off a couple of things that I have kept putting off.

I’m hoping to get up in the loft tomorrow & de-install the extractor fan so I can give it a good clean , a task originally scheduled for the beginning of December last year !

Got some EOS co-op time this afternoon, it has to be said I’m pretty poor at it, it seems. I am too enthusiastic & tend to forget that others are with me.

I often wonder why folks bother with me, I’m fat, inactive & anti social. I have so many MH issues one could fill a book with the acronyms !

I often wonder , if I were free, if anyone would fall for the person I am now. There truly isn’t much to recommend me - I think me n herself stay together out of habit, we share little in common, & I am more a parasite than a symbiont these days .

Hey ho, it is what it is, we march forward because there is no going back !

Final Thoughts.

I’m not sure why my mood has dropped so suddenly, it has not been a bad day, but sometimes I struggle to keep my dislike of myself under wraps & self doubt creeps in along with everything else.

A massive thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 5 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 63 Sunday 31/12/23

TL:DR HAPPY NEW YEAR !
For once you can read the blinking thing 😆

So time has caught up with us folks, as we enter the last hours of New Years Eve this is the last diary entry for 2023.

It would, perhaps, be nice to report that I have had some major insight or revelation a the end of the first year of my ‘autistic awakening’ , but perhaps that is the biggest of them all - the realisation that I am ,in fact, autistic.

In my mind I can tick each of the Triad of Impairments - Social Communication, Social Intelligence & Social Imagination.
For sure I am high functioning , but too many things point to ASD for it to be in doubt, for me at any rate.

I hope that the ASD Assessment agrees with this once complete, I’m not sure at this point what I will do if it doesn’t - a problem to deal with if that is what transpires.

Today has been relaxing & fun , with a little gaming & sharing the day with friends on Mastodon!

I had a good chat with my dear friend CDP 🧚‍♀️ this morning, always an enjoyable experience 😊

Final Thoughts:

2023 has been a year that has left me with indelible scars but also new & lasting friendships .

It started with me ‘knowing ‘. I was just chronically depressed, & has ended with me ‘knowing’ I’m #ActuallyAutistic !

I have made progress in a couple of areas towards the end of this year - I can now , under very particular circumstances play multiplayer co-op games, & I am no longer a total hermit - going out on my own is now something that is merely very difficult , rather than nearly impossible !

Many people have helped me achieve this, a small group of really close friends have supported me & kept my head above water & I owe them all a debt of gratitude that will be hard to repay!
One stands out however, her determination inspires me, her sense of humour is infectious & her gentle honesty, kindness & understanding has actively helped me to break thru barriers I never thought I could.
Thank you CDP 🧚‍♀️🥰💜

A very Happy New Year to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you and I hope 2024 is better than 2023 !! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 57 Monday 25/12/23

TL:DR Christmas has broken … (or is that morning ?) ; NMS played ; iPhone build on pause for xmas; smoked salmon sarnies are the way to go for buffet lunches !

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all my friends & those who have accompanied me on this journey so far - your love, advice & support are appreciated so very much!

Up early , played a little NMS co-op then ablutted & dressed before hitting the kitchen & creating the culinary masterpiece that was our Christmas buffet lunch.

Others could have helped but chose to ‘supervise’

I drove us across to my MiLs where afore mentioned repast was consumed with gusto , seems (despite what my Dad put on the PA Informants report) I can cook - or at least prepare !

Lunch eaten, presents passed round we left for home.

Watched some xmas TV & then I made tea & washed up.

So pretty much business as usual for me today - yay.

Final Thoughts:

I am trying really hard to be positive here, & TBH today has not been a complete disaster , but next Christmas will be very different, one way or another !

Note to self , don’t write diary when drunk - en vino veritas !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Susan60 , 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Thought. I have always run warm. I do feel the cold, but not as much as most people. I hate (detest?) overheated department stores. This got worse with the onset of perimenopause, & I was unable to wear jumpers for years, because I couldn’t get them off quickly enough during hot flushes, which threatened spontaneous combustion. This settled somewhat after finally going on HRT.

I’ve noticed a change since going on ADHD meds. I now wear winter pjs on a “cool” summers night, & a nightie on warmer ones & am more likely to don a jacket of an evening.

I’m wondering whether this is a consequence of the meds, & overheating is related to ADHD. #ADHD #ActuallyAutistic @actuallyautistic #Menopause #HotFlushes #WomensHealth

Tim_McTuffty , 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 50 Monday 18/12/23

TL:DR NMS forever ! (well until I get bored with it ! ); Mrs S.s Cans have been replaced successfully ! ; Mastodon ROCKS ! @weirdfolks ROCK harder ! ; 50 DAYS !

Welcome one & all to my 50th ,consecutive, entry ! This is now , officially, the longest diary I have ever kept ! 🎉🥳🍾🥳🎉

As is often the case at the moment today has been a much better day!

Chores were done, NMS was played , both in co-op & solo & I had a lovely time on here this afternoon - I only intended to spend a quick 10 minutes around lunchtime & before I knew it it was 15:35 !

I discovered that the whole ‘over stimulation ’ thing actually applies to me . . occasionally I can have true flashes if insight within moments of learning something new , this , sadly, was not one of those moments! 🙄🤦‍♂️

Mrs S.s new headphones rocked up as promised , so they were duly charged up & paired, just in time for her to watch TV while enjoying her evening repast.

I placed them proudly in front of her . . . . “Do they work ??? “ were the 1st words out of her mouth .

I admit I was slightly short with her & possibly slightly sarcastic, because of course after her spending the day anticipating this moment I was gonna present her with a dead set of headphones ! 🙄🤦‍♂️

Hey ho.

Final Thoughts:

I am totally back into NMS & loving it - hey I know its an addiction , but it’s better than some of the alternatives !

I am especially enjoying playing it in limited co-op with CDP 🧚‍♀️, we have a lot of fun together !

A massive Thank you to those that participated in the Cake war this afternoon with @MaJ1 , I have not had so much fun in ages ! 🤗🥰

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 48 Saturday 16/12/23

TL:DR Really , you think tonights entry is too long ! SMH 😜😂

First of all shoutout to all who offered support yesterday it is amazing that so many people reached out! Just Thank you ! 🤗🥰

Had a brilliant co-op with my Bestie this morning , we discovered the PS5s share screen facility, Remote Supports’ tool of choice ! 😆

An afternoon of tree building & decorating was accompanied by a trio of Christmas movies - Muppet’s Christmas Carol, Nightmare before Christmas & Arthur Christmas.

There may have been Blandys & Xmas treats followed by pizza !

Final Thoughts:

Nothing like good friends & a couple or 3 good movies to brighten the day 😊

Watched Arthur Christmas , see if you can spot a certain Squirrel near the end ! 😜 🐿️

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 45 Wednesday 13/12/23

TL:DR NMS is game de jour again! ; Besties are the best 🤗🥰 ; Pretty chilled & MH is on the up ! 😊

Super good day, pretty much NMS wall to wall, major push to finish Expedition 9, which turned out to be worthwhile as I got a mean Fighter ship out of it , that I can use in EVERY other save & all future saves.
CDP 🧚‍♀️ will defo be jealous in the morning 😆

Talking of CDP 🧚‍♀️ who could wish for a better bestie, we played solo this morning but chatted & then had a major co-op session this afternoon!

I think it is a quirk of my ASD that I can only coop with 1 person, & they have to be an exact fit! No wonder its taken so long to get into co-op playing !

Project WOOF sadly took a serious step back today, I could not resist hitting the Danish Butter cookies, which are bite sized & ridiculously moreish !
Hey ho, mucho exercising & dieting in the new year!

The fact that today was another day where all the masks were off also helped sp much to relax me!

Final Thoughts:

Ok I must be getting better MH wise, my gaming addiction is coming back!

Vis a vis the above - I need to schedule my time !!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 43 Monday 11/12/23

TL:DR My time management sucks ! ; I knew the positive streak was too good to last ! ;I’m totally focused . . “oh look , squirrel!’

Busy day today.

Up at the usual time, but mixed chatting with my bestie with a little NMS to try & get the Expedition moved fwd.
I’d like to say that I jumped to the whole ASD stuff after breakfast, but I’m back to being well enough for the game addiction to be present so lost another hour to that 🙄🤦‍♂️

I spent the morning fighting with the scanner to persuade it to scan the ASD Informant reports in & then collate them into the right order , came close to just chucking the thing out the window !

Spent a couple or 3 hours this afternoon playing NMS co-op , enjoyed it enormously , although did feel guilty that I had failed on concentrating on the ASD stuff left to do!

Late afternoon into this evening was spent summarising up my educational & employment history, boy have I done a lot of stuff ! I could have done without being reminded that 2012 was the last year I was able to work due to a massive MH breakdown.

A call with the elder of my sisters was a nice way to end the day.

Final Thoughts:

I rediscovered why I don’t work anymore, having fought with a mix of the technology , my stubbornness to cough up to renew our MS 365 sub. & reminders going off left right & centre for stuff I had put on a back burner for today , I was thoroughly frustrated with everything by the time my Sister rang this evening, to the point where the cats & Mrs Squirrel had vacated the immediate vicinity and various pieces of tech were in severe danger of being lobbed across the room!

I don’t do defeat, I do however work on the basis of a deadline to force me to do stuff, which then leads to frustration if stuff goes wrong!
To thoroughly misquote Yoda ,“Frustration leads to anger , anger leads to hate , hate leads to the dark side ! “

Tomorrow morning will absolutely have to be dedicated to finishing this flipping ASD Self assessment report !

I can prevaricate for England it seems !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Tim_McTuffty , 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 41 Saturday 9/12/23

TL:DR How long can this streak last ? ( I hope I haven’t jinxed it ! ) ; I never expected the Diagnostic Assessment to be such hard work, it’s worse than applying for a job, it’s worse than applying for a job in a high security location!

Well who’d a thunk - 3 days (nearly) on the trot of a fairly chilled Squirrel!

Up early, but having had a rough night I had a quick chat with my Bestie then went back to sleep.

Had a great NMS co-op session with CDP 🧚‍♀️ after breakfast, it was so much fun teaching someone else the tricks & bits n bobs, she was worried that I might get bored playing with a noob , but it was enormous fun !

Worked on my ASD assessment self-report form, today, & have started tracking trigger points & behaviour.
Boy am I set in my ways !
It’s weird , many of my routines are deeply based on logic, but are routines nonetheless !
There are 25 pages to this thing! I have until Tuesday afternoon ! (Which is probably why I spent the grand total of about an hour on it today 🙄🤦‍♂️ )

This afternoon & evening have flown past , the latter part of the day was taken up with catching up with a couple of topical satirical news shows & then Mrs Squirrel & I watched ‘The Creator’ which I can defo recommend to sci-fi fans, some slightly tongue in cheek nods to Star Wars, Blade Runner & Chappie !

Final Thoughts:

I am waiting for the other shoe to drop, it’s all going far too well!

I best get a fecking ASD diagnosis after all this work, I know me and oddly I will probably feel like a complete fraud & stranger still a complete failure if I don’t !

I hope I sleep tonight, I’ve had a few restless nights so far this week & need some decent sleep !

I love sci fi movies 😆

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves