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Don’t be afraid of discovering that the ‘real you’ may be different than the ‘current you' - Rabbi Noah Weinberg

Cat lover still in pursuit of wisdom, terrified of geopolitical direction, anxious about ecological collapse, lover of Nature, natural spirituality, history and ancient numismatics. Oh and did I mention cats? Hello everyone!

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chevalier26 , to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic Do y'all know if it's an autistic trait to be super skeptical of stuff? Like, for example, my parents watch some questionable "health" people on YouTube, and when they show me a video from said people, I can tell IMMEDIATELY that they are grifters in it for money. Idk what gives it away but it's like a flashing warning sign in my brain.

I wonder if it has to do with social influence and the effects of charisma/agreeableness that NDs might not fall for.

Greenseer ,
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@chevalier26 @actuallyautistic As for what the underlying reason for the ability might be, my unhelpful answer is that I don't know (tho' I could probably speculate). Instinctively, I suspect the answer lies not in a silver lining to a disability (ie any blindness to certain social cues that may otherwise be used to deceive), but an ability in and of itself, resulting from our different way of thinking, that is intuitive

Greenseer ,
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@pathfinder @chevalier26 @actuallyautistic You lay out nicely the seeming paradox that I just alluded to in a different part of this thread.. and I see the point you make similarly

Greenseer ,
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@pathfinder @chevalier26 @actuallyautistic Yes, and in my experience, in order to learn anything I need to incorporate it into a broader coherent paradigm. Else, it just won't go in. So, rather than being able to learn an isolated factoid without understanding more, we are compelled to do much more work and contextualise in a far broader understanding of a field. This is harder but leads to appreciation of many related facts, their context, and ultimately more enduring memory

Greenseer ,
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@pathfinder @chevalier26 @actuallyautistic When I was younger (and (even) more self-assured 😉) I remember thinking (usually in response to a parent) 'yes, but you would be as black and white in your thinking if you understood (...) half as well as I do' 🤣

Greenseer ,
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@pathfinder @chevalier26 @actuallyautistic Yes. I've since matured into the understanding that 'I myself know nothing other than that others are wrong' 🤣

Greenseer ,
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@pathfinder @chevalier26 @actuallyautistic Nah, that has to be some kind of logical fallacy or something. The one knowable truth is that no one knows the truth. And most don't even know that!

eo , to actuallyautistic
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Now I wonder if C.S. Lewis was Autistic?
"Of all tyrannies, a tyranny sincerely exercised for the good of its victims may be the most oppressive. It would be better to live under robber barons than under omnipotent moral busybodies. The robber baron's cruelty may sometimes sleep, his cupidity may at some point be satiated; but those who torment us for our own good will torment us without end for they do so with the approval of their own conscience."
@actuallyautistic

Greenseer ,
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@eo @actuallyautistic In answer to your question, I'm not sure. But Anthony Hopkins, who played him in Shadowlands, is. Great quote, btw!

SallyStrange , to bookstodon
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(Some) ignorant leftbros: "Class first! No idpol!"

Scholars of right wing politics/economics: "All these right-wing thinkers are much more comfortable thinking about the blurred lines between sexual and economic politics than many thinkers on the left. And they understand that Keynesianism rests on a certain kind of sexual contract. Any challenge to this order—whether it be an escalation of wage or benefit claims, or the flight from sexual normativity, or unmarried women claiming welfare benefits—disrupts the fiscal and monetary calculus on which Keynesianism rests."

Above remark from "The Extravagances of Neoliberalism", an interview of Melinda Cooper (author of "Counterrevolution: Extravagance and Austerity in Public Finance") by Benjamin Kunkel, in The Baffler.

Archived, no paywall link: https://archive.is/pLYsA#selection-929.1-929.479

Original link: https://thebaffler.com/latest/extravagances-of-neoliberalism-kunkel

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Greenseer ,
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@SallyStrange @bookstodon I always feel that those on the Left aho wish to reduce everything to class to the exclusion of all else care more for what is usually a very superficial dogma than manifesting actual change

Without recognition and due value for the experiences of different communities, there can be no intersectionality and without intersectionality there will be no change. As you say..the Right gets this only too well

Greenseer , to actuallyautistic
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You know the story of the blind men & an elephant trying to decide what it is by touch? It's all about perspective & the finite ability of our senses. But I suspect we humans have an additional problem. It's as though our sight, on seeing an elephant, is designed to filter out parts of it. "What trunk? I don't see a trunk from any angle. Shit, what just stole my hat?" But, that selective vision was suited to a different, earlier, human reality, not ours

Maybe less so for @actuallyautistic 🤔

Greenseer OP ,
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@actuallyautistic ..and btw, I'm not saying some have a savant ability (the lack of selective filters doesn't automatically come with the processing power to handle extra data). No more than I'm saying, the selective view of NTs is a disability. It's about suitability for context. But perhaps the evolutionary value of autistic traits is that they allow the species a get-out clause when it reaches a place where its filters are counterproductive @actuallyautistic

26pglt , to random
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Another person’s perceptual experience may not be the same as ours.

This is Fundamental to understanding the experience of folks. I always assumed everyone perceived the way I do & I’m just a sook who can’t cope. This is not true! I am sooo glad my partner now understands this.

Same applies to information processing & seeing patterns. I thought everyone can see what I do. They don’t. We’re ok.

https://aeon.co/essays/the-moral-imperative-to-learn-from-diverse-phenomenal-experiences

Greenseer ,
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@26pglt @actuallyautistic 'seeing through the eyes of another' is, in the literal sense, impossible. But does this mean we are resigned to attempts that are a ponderous intellectual exercise of imagination? No. Fortunately, we are given a talent that harnesses the far more capable unconscious. You mention compassion. That is the key. Compassion unleashes our greatest ability to see through many eyes. Or at least, to the greatest degree available to us. There's expansive wisdom in compassion

ChrisMayLA6 , to random
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Hurrah... good sense breaks out in the as the 'Waitrose of the North', Booths begins to get rid of self-service check-outs.

Given the price premium at Booths, we (the customers) want the social interaction with staff at the checkouts, not be told to 'scan & bag'!

More importantly, not only do checkouts provide regular local employment, they are also for many semi-isolated shoppers a key bit of rare social interaction... so a welcome reverse!

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-lancashire-67373472

Greenseer , (edited )
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@ChrisMayLA6 As an autistic person, I always prefer self-service. It relieves me of the effort to mask during a social interaction, and since their introduction, I have found a shopping visit far less challenging. I can certainly respect the benefit of staffed checkouts for many, but regarding them as a universal good ignores people like myself. Having options that cater for all is better @actuallyautistic

Greenseer ,
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@ChrisMayLA6 @actuallyautistic @RolloTreadway My local coop is a great illustration actually. It has 3 self-service checkouts and always has available staffed checkouts too. My impression is that overall, it's about 40/60, with about 60% preferring a staffed checkout

Greenseer ,
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@hauchvonstaub @ChrisMayLA6 @actuallyautistic @RolloTreadway I gave the benefit of the doubt and regarded the contradiction as a learning curve 😉

Greenseer ,
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@hauchvonstaub @ChrisMayLA6 @actuallyautistic @RolloTreadway Yes, I picked up on that too. I guess the learning curve has a way to go

AimeeMaroux , to mythology
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It's the Day of Ares / Mars' Day / ! 🗡️

This coin was minted circa 206 CE, during the reign of Caracalla. The obverse depicts the laureate head of Caracalla facing right. The reverse type features , naked save for cloak hanging from his shoulder, holding a branch and spear.

@antiquidons @histodons @mythology @CoinOfNote @Greenseer

Greenseer ,
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@AimeeMaroux @antiquidons @histodons @mythology

A very perky looking Mars, carrying a trophy, on a denarius of Septimius Severus, struck in 196 CE 😊

Greenseer ,
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@AimeeMaroux @CoinOfNote @antiquidons @histodons @mythology That seems to me a really good point. Traditionally, in numismatics, they are called trophies and that makes sense when you see them placed next to a naked captive. The Romans would effectively if not officially, be making a trophy out of their arms. But, seen like this, carried by semi-nude Mars, maybe it was just his arms bundled so that he can carry them around 🤷‍♂️

marenf , to actuallyautistic German
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@actuallyautistic
Have any of you tried L-Tyrosine and/or L-Theanine to improve anxiety and memory with AuDHD? If so, how much did you take and did it help?
Any other supplements you can recommend?

Greenseer ,
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@marenf @actuallyautistic Yes! And I'm really not one for fad supplements. For me, as an AuDHD, L-Tyrosine really works. Not so sure about memory, but certainly for clarity and alertness. This after, being unable to continue with any of the prescribed amphetamine based drugs, or antidepressants, as even sub-therapeutic dosages produce intolerable side-effects. The L-Tyrosine gives me about half the benefits, with none of the downsides

Greenseer ,
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@marenf @actuallyautistic Just 500mg a day, but that's cos' it's a little expensive for me. Really, I'd like to try twice or three times that

sahat , (edited ) to actuallyautistic
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sometimes I read something on here a personal account or something political, that moves me. It often takes until the next day or even several days before I know why and what it is, that I would like to reply to that. most the time I don't, cus I can't find the original post anymore or because I assume, it's too late. Sometimes I then write up a long long post. About this issue and all the implications and my experience and so on.
That's just the way my brain functions. I can't help it. There seems to always be too much in it. Too many threads connecting too many things and too deep feelings. I wonder whether I should quit this alltogether and rather dump my hyperconnected brain's content into a blog. On the other hand, I love the community on here. All of this presents exactly the same in my offline life.

the @actuallyautistic community has helped me so much in trying all of this out, reflecting on it and receiving encouragement. In my initial unmasking phase I got a ton of flag from NT on my style of communication and the intensity of it. I knew I needed to learn and adjust.
I'm often way fast actually. All of these patterns and connected issues flash into my mind right away. But creating a bridge of communication takes time. Mastering the intensity and the volume of it. The impatience. The need to balance my physical.emotional mental energy finding ways to stim or otherwise relax that work. After decades of masking and suppressing some of the actual content I had to find a whole new way of expressing myself truthfully. With all of that extra ND energy and views included. It was rough at the beginning.
This space here was important to me in being able to have helpful and loving feedback and being able to take all of those baby steps. Thank you all.

Greenseer , (edited )
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@sahat @actuallyautistic This is exactly the reaction I had to your post, a number of days ago. The one on the thread where I first saw you posting. I'm still processing it and my thoughts. It's terrible as I worry my non-response might leave the impression it had no effect on me when, in fact, the reverse is true. I thank you for expressing yourself so well here, yet again, and hope that you can understand that what you describe happens to those who read your posts too. No response ≠ no effect

Greenseer ,
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@sahat @actuallyautistic 🫂♥️

beatnikprof , to academicchatter
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Trying a Pavlovian experiment with my students today. I will toss a candy bar to anyone who speaks. Let’s see if they catch on and if this will encourage greater class participation.
@academicchatter

Greenseer ,
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@beatnikprof @academicchatter I predict that you will have to sustain this method forever because you will discover that the moment you stop it, not only will the students revert to former patterns, there will be an even greater disinclination to participate than before.

I mean, why would they, if there's no more treats?

Be careful! 😉

nddev , to actuallyautistic
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Are you still keeping quiet about your autism? Well, maybe not as quiet as you think.

Helen was chatting to a friend today about something I'd done. The friend immediately said, "Oh, that's obviously the autism." We've never told a soul about my autism, but this friend has an autistic son and she saw it straight away.

So just be aware that your secret may be out.

@actuallyautistic @allautistics

Greenseer ,
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@nddev @actuallyautistic @allautistics Same thing happened to me with a chatty boiler engineer. Usually I don't tell a soul, but he was talking about his autistic son, so I mentioned I was autistic too and before I finished my sentence, he said, 'Yes, I realise'. Well bugger me, it only took decades and many shrinks before I finally had to suggest the possibility to one myself. It was like I'd lit a light bulb in their head. If only I'd been seeing boiler engineers instead!

Greenseer ,
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@nddev @actuallyautistic @allautistics To be honest, the single biggest benefit to seeing shrinks was that a professional could tell society on my behalf that, in his pseudo-knowledgeable capacity, yes indeed, this one is mentally defective and should be cut some slack

Other than that, everything approaching therapy or treatment was a very mixed blessing. I now avoid them and am better for it

Greenseer ,
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@sahat @nddev @actuallyautistic @allautistics I totally agree with you. As you say, the good work is being done by those with a natural compassion and sensitivity. The 'science' at its foundation? Well, in my opinion, it's a lot closer to quackery, with all the self-delusion, abuse, snake-oil, BS and bigotry traditionally associated with that, than it is to other fields of 'real' medicine

Greenseer ,
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@sahat @nddev @actuallyautistic @allautistics With apologies, right now I can't reply as fully as I'd wish to, but.. we are gonna get on! I passionately agree with all you say, and I look forward to talking with you more 🙏🏼😊

Greenseer ,
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@Aerliss @nddev @actuallyautistic @allautistics No, you must never tell them this! 😂 That would break the rules of the sick game we must play to protect ourselves. But I do think it is vital to know it in your own mind

JeremyMallin , to actuallyautistic
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How many fellow Autistics have never lied on a job application, never lied on a CV, never lied on tax forms? 🙋‍♂️

Is doing that expected? Is it required? Is not doing that handicapping us? Do you too feel almost unable to do that?



@actuallyautistic

Greenseer ,
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@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic No, I've never lied on a CV or during an interview. It's not that I couldn't, I just wouldn't betray my own integrity. I also have a weird notion that if you don't get a position for the crime of being yourself, that's probably a good thing in the long run.

However, I suspect many interviews are a test of how well you can conform to the prevailing BS, so this approach is probably not the best way to get rich 😉

strypey , (edited ) to actuallyautistic
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This is so me!

'How my ADHD hides my autism':
https://yewtu.be/watch?v=5jD4iU2_v4k

@actuallyautistic @adhd

Greenseer ,
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@sahat @strypey @actuallyautistic @adhd I've just watched the video. I've both ADHD and autism too and relate to all she said so much (TY Strypey for sharing, I'll be exploring more of Sam's channel)

You know, it's funny, some people complement us, and we gravitate to them for the sake of the differences. But other's trigger a deep sense of affinity and the feeling they are 'our kind of people'.. and this experience is, imo, potentially, a more sensitive diagnostic tool than any other

Greenseer , to random
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show and tell for a lesser known Ptolemaic god, Harpokrates, a Hellenic interpretation of the Egyptian god of the newborn sun, Horus, as a child. Usually depicted with finger pressed to his lips and often with roses, he also later became associated with secrets and silence, leading to the concept of 'sub rosa'. Here shown on the reverse of a rare bronze obol struck in 137 to 138 CE under Hadrian, in Alexandria, Egypt, wearing a pharaonic hemhem crown

Greenseer OP ,
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@taoish Ah, because of the AREPO line. I hadn't heard that one before 👍🏻

Greenseer OP ,
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@taoish Until a papyrus with a direct reference an ΑΡEΠΟ is found, it's impossible to say. But now I can't stop thinking of the middle Marx brother 😁

Greenseer OP ,
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@taoish @medievodon @histodons I'm afraid it would be a one-sided process as I have no notes to share. I am aware of it, but that's all. I'd be very interested in reading more tho'. After I cracked that joke about Harpo, I found out that apparently there was a running joke that he was named after Harpocrates, as the mute member of the trio. It wasn't actually true, apparently. He was named for the harp he played

theautisticcoach , to actuallyautistic
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As many of you here, and as all of you who have met or worked with me, know, I am an Israeli.

I’m also a life long peace activist for Israel-Palestine.

Unfortunately, MANY of you have taken the last few days to attack me, call me a murderer, lecture me about the world I grew up and lived in for 35+ years of my life, dare to speak down to me and over me, erase my history and lifelong dedication for Palestinian rights, and even wished me to die.

Others of you have taken the opportunity to call me an antisemite, a race traitor, a horrible person, a hypocrite, a terrorist, and erase my history and lifelong dedication to Jewish life and making Israel a better place to live.

Yet, VERY FEW of you have asked how I am. How is my family? How are my friends? How are YOU?

Well, no. I have my family & friends in deep crisis. Many have lost their own other family and friends, parents, siblings, kids and lovers - some by bullets, others by fire, others by kidnapping. A comrade of mine lost his parents. An other had their 16 year old son taken into Gaza. Too many people I know or am connected to have been murdered or taken. And I use the word murder, not killed, because sleeping civilians in their home or at a party are not military combattants. Babies aren’t targets.

I also have Palestinian friends who have lost families in Gaza from the bombs currently falling from IDF planes. My heart aches for them too as theirs does for me.

But many of you only care about death when one side fits your own narrative and unformed and ignorant beliefs.

So no, I’m not OK. I’m not OK at all.

Keep reading in the next post

@actuallyautistic @mazeldon

Greenseer ,
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@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic @mazeldon It is too easy to forget that in every conflict, regardless of the rights & wrongs, the majority of people are.. ordinary. A human mix of imperfection and goodness. But in the large part, they are the victims. Those who profiteer from conflict and chauvenism, nurture it, build careers on it, empower and enrich themselves by it, on BOTH sides, conspire against ordinary people everywhere. They are the villains. That is the 'us and them' that matters

theautisticcoach , to actuallyautistic
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How do my comrades understand the term "regulation"?

@actuallyautistic

Greenseer ,
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@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic As a commie plot against my emotional freedom 🙃

(apologies.. am in a silly mood)

ScriptFanix , to actuallyautistic
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Today, the addictologist told me it's usual for @actuallyautistic people to have some addiction or another. So please tell me, do you have one?

Greenseer ,
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@ScriptFanix @actuallyautistic Yes. I've had many. My saving grace has been, as with most obsessions, my tendency to one day realise I'm done with whatever it was. And then that's that

housepanther , to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic Having major depressive disorder with generalized anxiety disorder as a co-morbidity of is challenging. I tend to be more depressed in the mornings and feel almost depression free at night. The condition is puzzling and frustrating. For anybody else experiencing depression, do you have specific times of the day where the depression is or seems worse?

Greenseer ,
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@housepanther @actuallyautistic I follow the same diurnal pattern. I try to explain it away by observing that towards the end of the day I am safer from horrible surprises, phone calls etc and that safest time of all is when everyone else is asleep. But really, that may be applying a rationale to something biological. I just don't know. I find myself staying awake very late to enjoy the relative sanity

AutisticAdam , (edited ) to actuallyautistic
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A big part of being autistic for me is being very intentional with my word choices in order to say what I mean and mean what I say.

To follow that up I then start having a bunch of people claim I said something I absolutely did not because they chose to add additional meanings they made up themselves.

@actuallyautistic

Greenseer ,
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@halfbit_ @llPK @AutisticAdam @actuallyautistic Good grief you are so right. I can't believe I hadn't before worked out why I was getting into trouble with that one so routinely. It must because...they are so bloody irrational that it's hard to believe it!!!

DocCarms , (edited ) to bookstodon
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There was a poll that stated—Rowling’s opening line in the HP series is one of best in the world. Someone posted about how there are a bunch of other opening statements that are better.

Here’s one of my personal favorites, from Gabriel Garcia Marquez (in English):
“It is inevitable — the scent of bitter almonds always reminded him of the fate of unrequited love.”

What are some of your favorite opening lines in literature? 😊
@bookstodon

Greenseer ,
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@DocCarms @bookstodon The Island of the Day Before - Umberto Eco

'I take pride withal in my humiliation, and as I am to this privilege condemned, almost I find joy in an abhorrent salvation; I am, I believe, alone of all our race, the only man in human memory to have been shipwrecked and cast up upon a deserted ship'

Long time since I first read this book, but it sits there on the shelf, remembered for this opening line that grabbed me and compelled me to dive in 😊

Greenseer ,
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@SteveClough @DocCarms @bookstodon Yes, but like the brilliant writer he was, captivating stories that can be enjoyed more casually too

Greenseer ,
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@JMaverickJacks1 @DocCarms @bookstodon I'm very impressed that you knew that and thank you for sharing. I know there must be countless references and layers in Eco that pass me by, yet still I am able to appreciate his books at the level I'm at. It's great to learn more, tho' 🙏🏼

AutisticAdam , to actuallyautistic
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Many autistic people have so much anxiety because, from a young age, we’re taught that our natural differences, as well as innocent things we do for ourselves (and things we can’t do), can anger other people and result in them punishing us, even when they’re not affected by them.

@actuallyautistic

Greenseer ,
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@AutisticAdam @actuallyautistic There's that. I think also that all children learn ways to cope with anxiety and process trauma from the adults in their life. It's true that our society generally fails to do this well, but fwiw the accepted methods are geared towards and passed on by neurotypicals. In short.. they don't wash with the neurodivergent mind, and that leaves us exposed as children to all of life's trials with no defence

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