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ScriptFanix , 7 months ago to actuallyautistic

I realise now that every single thing my exes told me when they left were autistic traits or consequences thereof. I feel kind of hopeless @actuallyautistic

littlescraps , 7 months ago

@ScriptFanix @actuallyautistic yes if you are not aware of these yourself you can’t make any decisions to communicate why you do what you do. So there is hope in that you are now more aware and will be less likely to mask and I believe you will now find people that will love you for what you really are… not your mask. I know I am having better relationships now that I am aware and try not to mask but be more honest with myself and those around me.. hang in there!

theautisticcoach , 7 months ago to actuallyautistic

Do my #ActuallyAutistic comrades love their plushies / stuffed animals?

Are they a big part of your life?

What do they mean to YOU?

Who are your favorites? Where are they from? Is there a story?

Introduce them!

#AskingAutistics @actuallyautistic

littlescraps , 7 months ago

@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic oh my god… this just can’t be another thing I thought I was weird about & is actually a perfectly normal coping strategy. Holy Shit! had blanket mom took away I was ruining it. I trnsfr to thing she not take away-pillow. I have 2 pillows w/dust mite covers. go every where I sleep. Very flat ,top one is Wubi. I am very particular about the pillow case that goes on it. Only thing I can depend on when the world is exhausting

alexisbushnell , 9 months ago to actuallyautistic

2015 me wrote in a journal "I am hiding my true self so as to try and blend in. I am different from everyone else, but I'm scared of that fact. I am trying to blend in but I am too different."

She was so right but didn't understand it was being #ActuallyAutistic and masking.

@actuallyautistic

littlescraps , 9 months ago

@alexisbushnell @actuallyautistic so true so true

hosford42 , 10 months ago to actuallyautistic

I'm #autistic. The sound of the train blowing its horn as it passes my house makes me cover my ears in pain. But the throbbing bass of the engine that causes a deep pressure in my chest from the vibration makes me feel happy.

When I was a kid, I used to crank up the bass of my parents' stereo and sit directly against the woofer to feel that pressure. They would always yell at me to turn it down. I've always loved that feeling.

#ActuallyAutistic
@actuallyautistic
@neurodiversity

littlescraps , 10 months ago

@hosford42 @Tooden @actuallyautistic @neurodiversity oh yeah never knew being able to see your heart beat in your eyes was wasn’t something everyone can do. I have also been known to play games with sunlight at an angle in morning and those floaties in your eyes. Does that make me NT or Autistic, or just easily entertained.

littlescraps , 10 months ago

@hosford42 @Tooden @actuallyautistic @neurodiversity ah yes.. I am most definitely ND and Autistic. Sorry, I was trying to be clever and funny, but realize you don’t know me. So not getting the inside joke. I am new to the understanding of my amazing ND power source. Been about 2 years since I started saying hmmmmm. Nothing like figuring it out at 55. I feel so much better . Used to think I could fix me. Know I know I don’t need to be fixed!

littlescraps , 10 months ago

@hosford42 @Tooden @actuallyautistic @neurodiversity I also am so fascinated to find all these things that are linked… it is like I go “ ah ha” that’s cool, I do that too! Finding my tribe here. So fucking cool to find all these people like me! It is like meeting my birth family at 30 and realizing I have people like me .. I’m not broken like my mom kept trying to make me feel. (They were quiet very NT, and passive aggressive) you guys are the BEST!