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An itinerant squirrel poet, aka https://beige.party/@MAJ1

New to the whole word smithing thing so don’t be too harsh.

Write as the muse hits me in the face, so output will probably be irregular, but I want to explore a world of art n poetry that has previously eluded me so will be boosting along those lines.

Boosting is the algorithm here, so if you like my stuff please get it out there 🙏

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 64 Monday 01/01/24

TL:DR New Year , new me ! ; Masto Peeps are totally awesome ! Mega New Years Shoutout !

I slept like the proverbial dead last night & woke up around 8:30am , had a peaceful day finishing our Star Trek fest.

Had a chat with my dear friend CDP 🧚‍♀️ , who was definitely feeling the after effects of pulling a 24 hour New Years Eve stint - I have never met anyone with such determination & drive , she still wanted to get her steps in & achieve her daily goals ! Cynni you are an inspiration !

Seems that although I texted every member of my family at midnight this morning & wished them a Happy New Year , not a single one of them felt the need to actually talk to me today, although all but my Dad did text me back, so I guess I should be glad of small mercies !

My New Year’s resolutions tie in closely with my plans for the year:

  1. Lose 120lbs - 55Kg of weight
  2. Get back to a level of fitness that allows me to maintain the lower weight & still eat.
  3. Fight the agoraphobia so I can get out of the house.
  4. Improve my mental health so I can function better
  5. Discard the detritus of the last 30 years & stop hoarding.
  6. Stop drinking daily & limit my cake intake !

See easy , simple resolutions 😆

Final Thoughts:

A new year will hopefully result in a new me , or at least a healthier , happier me.

I have have some awesome friends, & I would like to take the opportunity to recognise them here , if you want a list of top peeps to follow then this is pretty definitive! :

Victims, oops sorry, participants brace for impact 😜😂 - you may want to mute the thread after the first 1000 notifications or so 😈

This list is not in any order!

@evelynefoerster
@dgar
@si_irini
@Sneezy50783211
@DoubleTreble
@PaulNickson
@Paul
@countcol
@Bwee
@johnnyd_cm
@BlippyTheWonderSlug
@Cbfoley
@harriettmb
@RickiTarr
@skyfire747
@SilverRainbow
@Rasta
@kaybee335
@jacqui76
@ruperttherabbit
@EVDHmn
@pathfinder
@NormanDunbar
@niamhgarvey
@SurrealSeal
@Pierrette
@SteveClough
@CoachMark
@Rana
@amiserabilist
@PynkEmber
@ [email protected] (see I did think of you sweetie ! )

And of course not forgetting
@PlaystationPixy !

Please , for the love of Nuggan self police your threads , otherwise @theropologist (also a most awesome Peep & Admin) will prolly stuff me & mount me in the Beige.Party server room !

A massive thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 63 Sunday 31/12/23

TL:DR HAPPY NEW YEAR !
For once you can read the blinking thing 😆

So time has caught up with us folks, as we enter the last hours of New Years Eve this is the last diary entry for 2023.

It would, perhaps, be nice to report that I have had some major insight or revelation a the end of the first year of my ‘autistic awakening’ , but perhaps that is the biggest of them all - the realisation that I am ,in fact, autistic.

In my mind I can tick each of the Triad of Impairments - Social Communication, Social Intelligence & Social Imagination.
For sure I am high functioning , but too many things point to ASD for it to be in doubt, for me at any rate.

I hope that the ASD Assessment agrees with this once complete, I’m not sure at this point what I will do if it doesn’t - a problem to deal with if that is what transpires.

Today has been relaxing & fun , with a little gaming & sharing the day with friends on Mastodon!

I had a good chat with my dear friend CDP 🧚‍♀️ this morning, always an enjoyable experience 😊

Final Thoughts:

2023 has been a year that has left me with indelible scars but also new & lasting friendships .

It started with me ‘knowing ‘. I was just chronically depressed, & has ended with me ‘knowing’ I’m !

I have made progress in a couple of areas towards the end of this year - I can now , under very particular circumstances play multiplayer co-op games, & I am no longer a total hermit - going out on my own is now something that is merely very difficult , rather than nearly impossible !

Many people have helped me achieve this, a small group of really close friends have supported me & kept my head above water & I owe them all a debt of gratitude that will be hard to repay!
One stands out however, her determination inspires me, her sense of humour is infectious & her gentle honesty, kindness & understanding has actively helped me to break thru barriers I never thought I could.
Thank you CDP 🧚‍♀️🥰💜

A very Happy New Year to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you and I hope 2024 is better than 2023 !! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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@GreenRoc @actuallyautistic Thank you Roc , I am constantly blown away by kind comments like this!

Have the best time today sweetie & I look forward to chatting with you & sharing TLs next year !

😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic People can frown all they like, I have seen folks across the spectrum & even Lorna Wing recognised that there was a vast range of abilities within the spectrum !

That said I will check it out as you suggest sweetie 🤗🥰

I love that you & others accompany me & I am so very grateful to you all 🤗🥰

Many luvs n hugs CDP 🧚‍♀️🥰💜

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@alison @actuallyautistic Thank you Ali, you is my fave Gurl Squrl of the year , & next year too , it’s so nice to walk this path with folks like you sweetie 🤗🥰

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@alison @actuallyautistic Indeed 🤗🥰

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@DoubleTreble @actuallyautistic @weirdfolks Dee, you have returned the favour in spades! Also getting rid of dis Squirrel will not be easy 😆

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@si_irini @actuallyautistic Awww now you’re making me me blush NGP🧚🥰

You were instrumental in helping me find my muse & I will forever be grateful for that sweetie 🤗🥰

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@digitalrodent @actuallyautistic Happy New Year my fellow furry friend!

Thank you & I hope 2024 in kind to you mon ami !

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 62 Saturday 30/12/23

TL:DR Gaming, birthdaying , movieing , poeting ! ; Oh & being daft 😆

Up early as per to pay co-op with CDP 🧚‍♀️ but she was otherwise engaged so I was left to my own devices for a while. Played solo for a little bit then fell asleep in the chair.

Did manage to squeeze a little time in on NMS co-op 😊

Took Mrs S.s mum out for her birthday lunch, I think if I say that I survived the experience it will suffice.

Felt really quite podged out so didn’t do the usual purchasing of multiple sweet things, a small tin of boiled travel sweets was my limit today - Project WOOF obviously lurking in my subconscious !

Back home & our Star Trek fest continued with ‘Undiscovered Country’ & ‘Generations’

Mrs S. has left me on my own again , so having a laugh with a couple of the peeps on Mastodon & writing up my diary.

Ohhh nearly forgot , my poetry muse mugged me tonight, so I wrote a poem for CDP 🧚‍♀️🥰.
I am really happy to be in a mind space that allows me to write again, I have missed it !

Final Thoughts:

New year is lurking in the background , just waiting to pounce & revel in the sound of a million people cursing as they write the wrong year for the umpteenth time !

Perhaps next year family obligations will not rule my life, that would make a lovely change !

I have reached critical mass - I am Mr. Creosote !

I wondered lonely as a poet without a muse ….. Then they held me at gun point & got me writing again 😆

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 61 Friday 29/12/23

TL:DR Sleep deprivation has left me knackered .; NMS with a friend helps in so many ways! ; Project WOOF is yearning to be off the leash!

So the lack of sleep the other night caught up on me last night , I slept for 10 hours !
Woke up made breakfast, did my chores & then played NMS , sadly solo as CDP 🧚‍♀️ was off helping her Mum. Got a few things caught up on.

Got triggered a couple of times but I’m beginning to dislike recounting every little occurrence in detail.
I hope that the assessment process will lead to a diagnosis , which will lead to some better coping mechanisms I hope.

On the plus side I am finding that having a good ‘mate’ to game with is helping in other areas too! I have managed to resist the more destructive side of mounting frustration due to triggering, far more successfully since I had someone to battle the bad guys with 😊

Gonna hit Project Woof hard next week, I have reached the point where being this overweight is becoming a pain.
I wonder if I have an eating disorder or if I’m just a greedy idiot with little self control.

Why is it that all the ‘coping’ strategies I use are unhealthy for me ?

Final Thoughts:

Good day but not with out a dark outline to highlight the shiny stuff.

Gaming is cathartic & relaxing, especially with a close friend - I am debt to so many lovely people on here !

The end of the year is advancing at a geological rate , my mind is determined to ‘enjoy’ the festive season, maybe because it knows that next Christmas may be very, very different!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 60 Thursday 28/12/23

TL:DR Gaming rules at the moment, in this gap between the years. I will have to put my adult head on next year . Movie fest progresses. Strangely I’m not tierd atm.

So yesterday I had 2 days left to finish the latest NMS Expedition , with a special ‘high prestige’ ship as the ultimate reward.
CDP 🧚‍♀️ has been dropping hints like ‘Paveway’ bunker killers that some help on our joint session would be more than appreciated so I pulled the first all nighter in a long time, finishing the Expo just as my morning alarm went off at 4am.

We had a great joint session , I’m a little behind due to the Expo so some catching up was in order.

I tried out the ‘Golden Vector’ fighter that I got from the Expo , it’s ok but needs some work to get it up to spec.

A bit of work on the bases , & some general knocking about & the odd bit of mining rounded off a really nice session.

I made lunch - some cheese cracker nibbles & salad, followed by Christmas cake for her & bakewell tart for me!

The Star Trek fest continued with ‘Wrath of Khan’ & ‘Search for Spock’ then a couple of ‘All Creatures Great & Small’ to polish off the night!

Final Thoughts:

The end of the year approaches at a rate of knots. Next year will be a mix of challenges, some of them known, some of them predictable & the rest, as ever, unknown! For now though , it is the calm before the storm, that little gap of time where one can relax & gather strength.

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Thank you Cyn, for your friendship, for your support & for your kindness . Especially for making me laugh 🤗🥰

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 59 Wednesday 27/12/23

TL:DR Gaming, food, booze, nibbles & reflections on relationships. Oh & this time next week the festive season will be over for another 5 minutes (if the retailers have anything to do with it !) 😆

A really nice day today , some gaming this morning followed by a lovely lunch & then slobbing out in front of the TV with naughty nibbles & booze while watching Bridget Jones & then the beginning of a Star Trek fest !

I’m going to wander off on a tangent tonight & reflect on a close friends toot about someone special who has perhaps put their foot in it?

Understanding another’s motives can be crucial as can understanding their limitations!
I have met many folks , both ND & NT on here & they all have strengths & weaknesses , abilities & ‘disabilities’ . I am ND & I know certain things escape me, I know that sometimes I fail to see that a logical conclusion to me is not obvious to others, this leads me to take actions to help the common good without consulting with others who maybe affected. This is both something I need to understand & try & address, but equally I would hope that, if someone knew I was ND & knew about the triad of impairments they would understand that it was not a slight, but perhaps something that I maybe need help with.

The Triad of Impairment is a major pointer in the diagnosis of ASD. If one has evidence of impairment in each of the triad’s areas then there is a decent chance they are somewhere on the autistic spectrum .

The 3 areas of impairment are:
Social Communication, Social Intelligence & Social Imagination

Or can a person communicate effectively , understand social interactions effectively & be capable of empathy by imagining the feelings of others.

The above example has me failing miserably at the last hurdle.

My friend was concerned that a long distance relationship could prove challenging if I have understood what they have said correctly.

To this I would suggest that even in a relationship where the parties are geographically close it is difficult to dedicate as much time to another as one might wish.

Mrs Squirrel came very close to not being Mrs Squirrel many years ago when I was in Storage Management. My job was demanding & I often worked weekends & overnight. I was also on-call so if I had the ‘duty’ then there was no guarantee that even if we went to bed together she would wake up with me beside her. This caused friction & she felt abandoned.
What I had to make her realise at the time was that I missed her as much as she missed me & that professions that make such demands on one a balance is often hard to achieve & maintain. ( I can;t have been too bad given we are still married 20 odd years later😆 )

Also if you fall for someone who is passionate about work or a hobby & especially if they are ND , with all the complications that brings, then the path to a successful relationship is tricky & difficult to map out. However I firmly believe that ND folk make true, loyal friends ( & closer) & that it takes a massive amount to break such a bond!

Final Thoughts:

A good day filled with good company, food, booze, games & movies - 9/10 😊

Any romantic relationship can be a rollercoaster ride but I believe that ND + ND/NT relationships can be even more challanging because the ND element/s in the relationship are both failing to understand all the basic rules of play whilst simultaneously creating their own unique rules that others may struggle to adapt to.

I think distance relationships are covered under a song title that springs to mind “Love will find a way”!

The New Year is creeping towards us!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 58 Tuesday 26/12/23

TL:DR Ok Christmas is done, roll on New Year ! ; Ok , for all their faults I love my family! ; Slow drivers should be taught the meaning of ‘making good progress!’ ; NMS withdrawal symptoms creeping in !

Up about 5.30 this morning, caught up with CDP 🧚‍♀️ but sadly had no time for NMS.

Breakfast was followed by the Grand tour of the family - visited my brother, then my sister & finally my Dad (with my baby Sister).

It was a lovely sunny day for a drive over the hills to the flat lands of Lancashire , but the low angle of the sun did make actually seeing anything - like other road users - a bit of a challenge.

It was actually a really nice day, catching up & having a laugh.

The drive home was in the dark, so no sun in the eyes problems merely trucks and a driver who thought 40mph an appropriate speed on a 60 mph single carriage way road !

Final Thoughts:

Boxing day has been nice , but I am now utterly shagged !

Have probably added 3 inches to my waistline after all the lovely food imbibed !

My family are very much in the ‘oh everyone feels such & such’. when I try to explain my autism to them.
Imposter syndrome is rife tonight!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Thank you Cynni, for your friendship & insight & companionship, all very much appreciated!

Wednesday has been really good , have enjoyed it no end ! 🤗🥰

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 57 Monday 25/12/23

TL:DR Christmas has broken … (or is that morning ?) ; NMS played ; iPhone build on pause for xmas; smoked salmon sarnies are the way to go for buffet lunches !

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all my friends & those who have accompanied me on this journey so far - your love, advice & support are appreciated so very much!

Up early , played a little NMS co-op then ablutted & dressed before hitting the kitchen & creating the culinary masterpiece that was our Christmas buffet lunch.

Others could have helped but chose to ‘supervise’

I drove us across to my MiLs where afore mentioned repast was consumed with gusto , seems (despite what my Dad put on the PA Informants report) I can cook - or at least prepare !

Lunch eaten, presents passed round we left for home.

Watched some xmas TV & then I made tea & washed up.

So pretty much business as usual for me today - yay.

Final Thoughts:

I am trying really hard to be positive here, & TBH today has not been a complete disaster , but next Christmas will be very different, one way or another !

Note to self , don’t write diary when drunk - en vino veritas !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@skyfire747 @actuallyautistic Thank you Anthony , hope you are having a truly special Christmas holiday !

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 56 Sunday 24/12/23

TL:DR Christmas is imminent! ; Break in NMS spree! ; Clean build iPhone is all sorts of better - I don’t know if all these new features were being suppressed by the remnants of precious OS versions or that I was just to blind to noice them! ; ASD insights on empathy and menus ! ; Hope Santa is kind to one & all tonight!

So up early as usual, but CDP 🧚‍♀️ was unavailable for gaming so went back to bed for a couple of hours.
Spent a chunk of today being told off for essentially lacking social skills , & an inability to speed read.
It got me down a bit but hey ho , I’m a big boy I can take that on the chin & learn from it.
I think there is an empathy impairment here - I am not unfeeling but can be blind to the needs of others in some situations , especially when I’m distracted by other tasks. An area to work on me thinks !

Nigh on chopped the end of my nose off shaving - or at least one would thing so the amount of blood there was, I think I could have donated to about 5 separate blood banks !

Lunch was really nice , although another classic ASD situation arose - we went to a favourite local eatery &. found that the menu was the same as normal, this really put my brain out of joint , it just felt . . . uncomfortable, that there was no special provision.

Happily the Specials board came to the rescue in the form of a ‘Festive Turkey sandwich’.
In reality basically a Christmas dinner in a bun (except the roasties , which were on the side) !
It was totally delicious & I thoroughly enjoyed it !

Back home for an extravagant version of a Baillys coffee & an oversized choc chip cookie smothered in Cider butter & squirty cream !

My iPhone is still in the process of being rebuilt - the OS & main apps are in place but sundry other apps & settings need to be tweaked, a not unpleasant task 😊

Me n Mrs S. watched DUNE part 1 & then a James Herriot episode before she pissed off to bed at 20:45 - the dirty old stop up !

Final Thoughts:

Even on the best of days, & it was a really good day, the autism rears its head - weird reactions to unusual menu choices & some insight into how I can be a ‘better’ person.

How can one possibly stay thin at Christmas (under nominal conditions , I am not unaware of those without , who have had several donations in the last few days) .

We have pressies under the tree !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 55 Saturday 23/12/23

TL:DR Christmas is incoming ! ; NMS forever! (ish) ; Some folk are born to be gamers - CDP 🧚‍♀️is definitely one of those people ! 😊 ; Clean build iPhone lives !

Really quite a nice day !

Gaming with CDP 🧚‍♀️ , building new bases, starting to get her Freighter set up & working thru one of the main quest lines.

Caught up on some TV with Mrs Squirrel this afternoon , she went shopping this morning so now we actually have something resembling the makings of a Christmas Day buffet.

I truly enjoy gaming with CDP 🧚‍♀️ we tease each other mercilessly & I am constantly impressed how well she is doing in NMS given the massive learning curve that game has !
I try not to take the lead too much because I want her to discover stuff for herself, but sometimes I get lost in the moment & romp off at my normal speed.
We are both learning new combat skills - ie avoiding killing each other - & discovering the intricacies of the multi-player version !
One of these days , when CDP 🧚‍♀️ asks where something is , I will stop pointing with my finger 😂

A really good sign of my improving MH is that I finally got round to doing a clean install of the OS on my iphone - something that I have meaning to do all year - never got round to it on the old phone & just used the automated xfer process when I got the 15.

All is going well at time of going to press , tomorrow will see the creation of new automation & tailoring of Apps.

Final Thoughts:

A really good day on the whole , only minor triggers which were easily dealt with.

As mentioned before I have found that I have VERY specific requirements for co-op playing, I hope others that have either hinted at , or directly asked me to play co-op with them & have been rebuffed wil understand that it is not something I have any real control over - My autistic mind sets the rules not me.
Maybe with time & learning new coping strategies I will be better able to expand my gaming ‘fam’ (Nuggan I HATE that word 😂 )

My phone is now a lean , mean , dialling machine 😜😂

Cider & rum in the same glass is NOT nice - don’t ask !

Oh can anyone who has used the journaling app ‘Day One’ please let me know if its any good, after 55 days of writing this in IOS notes I need something a bit better. Alternative suggestions also welcome!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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@HistoPol @actuallyautistic G’night my friend 😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Good that your having such a good time playing NMS & that you have a handy mechanic available 😆

Yeah cider really doesn’t mix with rum - at all !

Thanks for the tip about Journey, will look it up & see what the story is !

Loads of luvs n hugs to you & Awwww-wen! 🤗🥰

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 54 Friday 22/12/23

TL:DR Gaming , choring & the last of the ASD Pre-assessment sessions. Topped off by a pizza 😊

Some early morning gaming with CDP 🧚‍♀️ before chores & catching up on here.

A missed Doctors appointment was nearly a cause for concern , but it was a telephone based appointment & I was lucky that he called back just before lunch.

Another NMS session this afternoon was followed by the last of the Pre-assessment appointments , which went very well.

A nice evening meal with a couple of glasses of cider & and ‘Silent Witness’ finished the day.

Final Thoughts:

Pre-assessment is done - next appointment will be the real thing !

I’m coming to realise just how much of my life has been affected by autism!

Christmas lurks just beyond the horizon !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 53 Thursday 21/12/23

TL:DR The day was great, till it wasn’t. ; Dark stormy skies reflected in dark stormy thoughts.

Spent the day relaxing & doing things I really enjoy, Tooting on here, playing NMS with CDP 🧚‍♀️ & having a good chin wag.

Then the dreaded trip to Costco, which to cut a long story short was everything I expected it to be.

Of course we had no idea of exactly what MiL enjoyed, merely what she didn’t like , because asking questions like “ what would you like to have for xmas lunch Mum” seemed to been deemed irrelevant by AJJ.

So we drove 15 miles to Costco, thru driving rain & heavy traffic & 15 miles back in similar conditions for a single shopping bags worth of stuff from a major wholesale store! Countless triggers along the way.

Hey ho , diverting destructive thoughts by watchingTom Hanks in ‘Fitch’ others may disagree, but I think he is one of the very best actors of our age. He rarely makes a movie that I don’t like.

A man , a dog & his robot, on a road trip to avoid the rest of humanity in a post apocalyptic world, what more does an ASD tech nerd need ?

Final Thoughts:

This place & gaming is currently keeping me sane, this is not a confirmed stable state!

A New Years resolution will be to beat the acrophobia & take responsibility for the shopping again!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Seems so, currently resisting the urge to go downstairs stairs & let my friends Dry Ginger & rum keep me company.

There are mechanics at work here that are too hard to share out load, this might be the least excited I have ever been about Xmas, & that in itself makes me unhappy.

Tomorrow masks will be back on, Squirrel here in the digital world & functioning human adult male in the analog world .

Onwards ->

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@DoubleTreble @actuallyautistic Thank you Dee , 🤗🥰

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Awww Thank you ! 🤗🥰

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@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Who the Mrs or the MiL ? 😮 😂

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 51 TUESDAY! 19/12/23

TL:DR 🥱😴

Stayed up late last night to catch up with NMS . 1 more day for this expedition.

A mix of chores , chatting with CDP 🧚‍♀️ & playing NMS filled my day, I had a really nice day. 😊

A sudden onset of fatigue is making writing this really hard to concentrate on.

I really cannot string one thought together with another.

Final Thoughts:

I don’t know where this wave of exhaustion has come from , I can barely type!

An early night may be needed!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@amiserabilist @actuallyautistic Awwww thank you SO MUCH !!!!

Thats so my new avatar !

🫶 !

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@DoubleTreble @actuallyautistic I write the entries in Notes first then copy them across. - I really need a better app to do it in , I was hoping the new journal app in IOS 17.2 would do the trick but its only on the iphone , I hate writing long pieces on the phone !

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic I have so much playing with you Cynni 🤗🥰

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Hey I’m an ex Storage Manager remember , managing storage mediums is kinda a thing 😂

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 51 TUESDAY! 19/12/23

TL:DR What days is it !!; Restricting my punctuation & emoji use as I tagged one of my fave VI Peeps in todays post ! ; NMS is the bees pyjamas! ; Mastodon ROCKS !

Erm I made a small error in my @Maj1 salutation this morning . . . I may , just may , have suggested it was. . . .Monday again 🙄🤦‍♂️

Ok I fess up , I totally said it was Monday this morning - not surprisingly this caused some confusion & more than a little piss taking on my TL 🤦‍♂️ 😆

I would have cottoned on to this if I hadn’t spent the morning tiding my bedroom so that I could actually move without risking serious injury whilst chatting with CDP 🧚‍♀️ 😊 , & then the afternoon playing NMS in co-op & solo. 🤦‍♂️

I would like to say that I had a more productive day , but hey ho I’ve nearly completed the 2nd truncated NMS Expedition 😆

Had fun catching up this evening & am writing this while watching S1.2 of Red Dwarf 😊

Tracked down @FreakyFwoof after losing track of him (soz mate, totally forgot your handle and was searching for your given name - my bad 😞)
Thanks to @nellie_m for reminding me of his UID ! 🙏

Final Thoughts:

Today has been a good day , I got a bit frustrated this morning , but the more I understand my triggers the more I can apply some basic dampening on them .

I am so glad that I moved to Mastodon just over a year ago , this community is unique & if you land on the right Instances & meet the right folk it is a life changing experience !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Thank you sweetie , I have a brilliant time when we play !

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 50 Monday 18/12/23

TL:DR NMS forever ! (well until I get bored with it ! ); Mrs S.s Cans have been replaced successfully ! ; Mastodon ROCKS ! @weirdfolks ROCK harder ! ; 50 DAYS !

Welcome one & all to my 50th ,consecutive, entry ! This is now , officially, the longest diary I have ever kept ! 🎉🥳🍾🥳🎉

As is often the case at the moment today has been a much better day!

Chores were done, NMS was played , both in co-op & solo & I had a lovely time on here this afternoon - I only intended to spend a quick 10 minutes around lunchtime & before I knew it it was 15:35 !

I discovered that the whole ‘over stimulation ’ thing actually applies to me . . occasionally I can have true flashes if insight within moments of learning something new , this , sadly, was not one of those moments! 🙄🤦‍♂️

Mrs S.s new headphones rocked up as promised , so they were duly charged up & paired, just in time for her to watch TV while enjoying her evening repast.

I placed them proudly in front of her . . . . “Do they work ??? “ were the 1st words out of her mouth .

I admit I was slightly short with her & possibly slightly sarcastic, because of course after her spending the day anticipating this moment I was gonna present her with a dead set of headphones ! 🙄🤦‍♂️

Hey ho.

Final Thoughts:

I am totally back into NMS & loving it - hey I know its an addiction , but it’s better than some of the alternatives !

I am especially enjoying playing it in limited co-op with CDP 🧚‍♀️, we have a lot of fun together !

A massive Thank you to those that participated in the Cake war this afternoon with @MaJ1 , I have not had so much fun in ages ! 🤗🥰

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@skyfire747 @weirdfolks @MaJ1 @actuallyautistic Hey Puzzler, you can’t expect to get cake if your not here !

have a good un my friend !

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