Anyway, if you can’t control the watcher, and the premise is they are always there, and always will be, you still have to live a life.
If all they ever do is watch, they technically have no impact on you, so your opinion of integrity is unchanged. It’s like they don’t really exist, aside from the observation.
If they have some judgement on you, then you are functionally living under duress, and the concept of integrity is a mess. There are far bigger problems happening to your “life”
Whether a person thinks they are being watched or nor is irrelevant. Either they are or they aren’t, and if they think they always are being watched, then it is safe to assume that person has integrity because they always act with integrity whether someone is actually watching them or not.
If you always feel like you are being watched then it doesnt matter what you would do if nobody was watching. Youre going to act the same as you always do, and if that is acting with integrity then that won’t change.
To me, being a good person extends to doing good while hopping on one leg.
That’s ridiculous, right? That’s obviously a definition of ‘good’ I’m creating, and choosing to impose on myself. Which is exactly what you’re doing. Yours is just less ridiculous.
A person’s actions to being a good person is much more important that a person’s thoughts. The most well meaning inactive person may be at best a neutral impact on the world, while the most sinister villain of internal thought that acts only altruistically would be considered a hero.
Especially since we’re all a hodgepodge of good/bad will - the challenge for anyone is to keep the crap inside as much as possible, and focus on doing the good.