Because when I do what I want, I get called a “retard” or asked “what the fuck are you doing?” by the people around me. I make a point to try to do things quietly (stopping to observe a cool bug, making chalk drawings on the sidewalk, saying “wheee!” on the swings, etc.), but it really doesn’t matter.
I’ve caught glimpses of people filming me before, so I now only do what I want in privacy.
Also doesn’t help that I’ve been accused of “doing it for attention.” Nah, my dude, pretty sure I’m just fckin’ autistic.
I only want people to leave me alone now. I don’t like having to justify my actions when I’m just trying to enjoy myself.