So, I've been signed off work for the last week. I've been suffering #Autistic#Burnout and had a #Meltdown at work. I have been prescribed anti-anxiety medication and the GP wanted to sign me off but I know this would be counter productive as I'm spend the time at home worrying about work.
I've been trying to source counselling via work who provide a mental health service.
unfortunately all links end up with a phone number to call :(
It has been so noisy at work and I have worked so many days in a row that I was scared before I was going to have a #meltdown. I had to go to an empty room with earplugs in cover my ears and shut my eyes for ten minutes.
Thank goodness it's a lot quieter now.
Yesterday I realised that this thing that always happens when I've had too much social interaction - this knot in my stomach and the deep need to screetch at the top of my lungs for at least an hour - is actually a #meltdown.
What bothers me is how little social interaction it takes for me to crack like that. Most nt people have twice that daily before lunch, but I can't even handle it more than once a month. I feel kind of helpless. Vulnerable.