What's the thing where you reflexively say you're busy just to avoid things you don't wanna actually do, and then people stop asking if you want to do things, and you're kinda okay with that sorting itself out but acknowledge that it has tremendous drawbacks that interfere with other things you might wanna do?
Cause I still do that and its embarrassing in so many ways but like, I also don't wanna be an implacable curmudgeon, cause I'm not. Or at least I don't think I am.
If even one person ever popped me on it, like, 'are you really busy or just telling me that' I would admit I was just telling them that for my own reasons, and nervously chuckle through it, but nobody ever has. I would actually be super impressed if someone popped me on it because that would mean they really know how I work and know me then.