What's the thing where you reflexively say you're busy just to avoid things you don't wanna actually do, and then people stop asking if you want to do things, and you're kinda okay with that sorting itself out but acknowledge that it has tremendous drawbacks that interfere with other things you might wanna do?
Cause I still do that and its embarrassing in so many ways but like, I also don't wanna be an implacable curmudgeon, cause I'm not. Or at least I don't think I am.
