As a pagan I can relate. I get a lot of good out of my religion and a lot of that comes from it being my religion. I’d love some communal Beltane and Samhain bonfires with friends, but my Mabon and Oestara walks to meditate on balance and the flow of the natural world and my internal world are valuable to me partly because they’re just for me. Celebrating the solar holidays has done wonders for me.
It’s interesting how my Catholic background split into a few different elements of my life, with my love of ritual in paganism and my comfort with polytheism to my politics being very close to the Catholic workers.