People who care about me are literally the only reason I’m still here. Not my family though. I have like two really good friends and I’m scared of losing them because I fuck up somehow.
I’m on the other side of that because my friends don’t put in the time investment into the relationship. So I’m currently without any direct “close” friends.
It could be said that I’m doing three same thing by not investing time - and you’d be right. I found myself always scheduling get togethers and such, but when I stopped reaching out (it was exhausting) I didn’t hear a peep.
Kinda done with people overall. I do have a good family framework, so I’m not totally in the dark-but I do miss closet relationships outside of that.
Honestly it’s not that bad yet. I just started having regular suicidal thoughts after years of not having them or not regularly having them.
There were times where I was pretty close but in the end I wanted to know what the future brings and didn’t do it. Basically, realizing that I had a friend whom I can trust saved me.
Just recently I said that I’ve never been happier in my life and now it all comes crashing down on me. I did some stupid and some in high sight fucked up shit. I might go to prison and if that happens I’ll probably do it. It’s not even that bad and I’m just 19 so I’m probably overreacting.
Also: basically all my friend have pretty strong depression and might kill themselves at any moment. I don’t know how I would live with that.
Indictments don’t count for shit without guilty verdicts and seeing the orange asshole behind bars, and I’m not even a doomer about this, I believe it’ll happen, but claiming victory before winning is always folly, just ask Trump.
Not that I disagree but it’s hilarious to see the contortions about how the indictments are no big deal from the “ZoMG Killary’s gonna get indicted any day now” crowd.
I’m not sure you understand what a doomer is. Doomers (as a meme) are people who are incredibly cynical and jaded; who believe that we as a species are fucked, and any attempt to stop it is like an antelope thrashing in the mouth of a lion. This idea isn’t inherently right-wing or left-wing, nor is it specific to any particular country (though it’s probably more common in the left-wing western anglo-sphere). It’s the idea that while it technically might not be too late to reverse course and solve things like wealth inequality, climate change, police brutality, fascism, etc; the fact that the people who benefit from these things are also the ones in power means it’ll never happen. It’ll always be 90% words, 10% action until it truly is too late; at which point they’ll declare that they tried as hard as they could and there’s nothing else to be done.
The people you’re describing aren’t actually doomers, they’re just concern trolls.
It’s pretty easy. Just don’t go to lemmynsfw.com. hopefully, we’ll get a way to subscribe to block all communities on another instance with a single click at some point to make this easier.
NSFW communities don’t show up by default. You can create an account on that instance to view all of them, or visit lemmyverse.net/communities to search for your specific interests.
I was told I could create an account anywhere on the fediverse and it wouldn’t matter, I’d see everything. If I need to create an account every time I want to see some booba, that’s not very seamless. Can I not just subscribe and see it on this lemmy.world account?
This is all very confusing coming from the one-account-one-site “everything just works” of reddit.
You don’t necessarily need an account on lemmynsfw.com - you would just need an account to browse NSFW on their homepage. But you can see and interact with all their communities from your current instance.
Just search for the communities while on lemmy.world - for example !porn or !boobs or whatever. You can click on those.
Just make sure you have “Show NSFW” enabled on your profile settings
Now some instances like lemmy.ml decided to block (defederate) from lemmynsfw.com so YMMV
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