I had a 15 year marriage that ended rough, and I’ve spent the last three years of it and the last year out of it, basically suicidal. I’ve gone on a date or two, and realized I can’t be happy with anyone until I’m happy. I try more every day, but it’s hard to shake off the idea that the love of your life already came and went, and everything from here on out is just like, some old piece of machinery trying to stay relevant in a world that doesn’t need or want it anymore. Online dating also feels more like a ripoff than something actually meant to work and I’ve decided if I ever do date, it will just be inside my current friend circle, and since there’s no one there… hm, yep.