Perceived value changes with age, as a teen I had value in how I looked, the clothes I wore and social circles I was in. Regretfully I also had value in that my value was more then others as they lacked looks, or expensive clothes, they’re social circle was perceived less than mine. now I am older I perceived my value in the house I rented and the things I owned, the low paid job I worked, and again I had perceived to have more value as others had less.
Once my life hit rock bottom, parent figure died, cheated on for a year, lost a good job, it became apparent that value is a means to suppress.