I’m sorry to comment like this, but… I just had a thought I must, “save forever,” because I’m scared I’ll lose it.
All this time, I’ve wondered if my girlfriend hates me or not.
Now that I find my feelings, I can only wonder how MUCH she hates me.
I had a comment to a post where I felt similarly with a long story that related to what I was feeling. The time spent writing that comment, and the explicit open invitation to message them, made me feel enough hope to not think that specific flow of words, “how MUCH hate.”
I wondered, “how did I fuck up and how can I fix it?”
I cheated on her the first year I was with her. It’s hard to admit that I talked shit about her the first few days, and remnants lasted as a part of me for a while after.
It’s been 3 years now, and we live together because finances and a random gun shooting as part of a fight a neighbor of mine I never knew involved the beating up of a guy that came back with a gun.
That’s the story the cops gave me, and occams razor is hard to use there, especially when it doesn’t matter why it happened. I moved out to live with her, and we got a new apartment.
I asked her to move in with me after she mentioned she wish that was the way it happened.
Initiative is the man’s responsibility, right? Sex says 1>1.
There’s love on both sides.
I’m sorry to spam. Again, I ask to please not ban. My life is on the line. I am not hateful or against any general rules. I ask that this be let passed for no reason other than to supplement the question I ask: