I didn’t realise that this was such a traumatic topic for you. I’m sorry if I triggered some intense feelings of guilt. In case you really are contemplating suicide due to having your behavior pointed out, you can call 988 if you are in the US.
I wish you all the best, but I don’t feel comfortable continuing this conversation with you. I really am sorry, I didn’t realise you were affected so strongly by this. Please call thay number if you are feeling badly. All the best!