It's hard to tell anymore if the internet truly offers nothing of value to me or if I'm just dead inside.

ininewcrow , 2 hours ago (edited 2 hours ago)

Maybe we were all dead inside to begin with … and then we created an internet that offered nothing of value in return.

spittingimage , 2 hours ago

I think it’s probably mostly that first thing. There’s only two-three websites I visit on the daily anymore. The rest isn’t worth it.

Lost_My_Mind , 2 hours ago

…wait, are one of those websites porn? Or are you forgetting about porn.

spittingimage , 1 hour ago

I may be forgetting about it.

grrgyle , 2 hours ago

I’ll be the judge of that. What are your data points?

Clinicallydepressedpoochie OP , 1 hour ago (edited 1 hour ago)

1.) I could give two shits about what the internet thinks on any given subject.

2.) I am not movitivated to use the internet for fun things like gaming, anymore.

3.) I want to crawl into a hole and fall asleep forever listening only to the humming of a sweet old lady.

4.) I look into my own eyes and see nothing.

5.) … I dunno… I check the fridge for cheese more often then I check my own text messages.

6.) I took up smoking again and I don’t even feel bad about the possible slow torturous death of lung cancer that awaits me.

7.) If I hear a child I am instantly annoyed(please don’t hate me I don’t have any kids of my own)

8.)I cannot write any

somnuz , 1 hour ago

I don’t want to fuck up your depression status or anything like that, but being this honest with yourself sounds sort of cool… in a way… you know?

It sounds like a beginning of something or… a wave.

Lazycog , 1 hour ago

I’mma go with number two for a sure bet, could be number one too, but number two for sure

BassTurd , 1 hour ago

A rollercoaster. It was dropping until the cheese thing, which I think is just normal, unspoken behavior. Sounds to me like a bout of depression, or at least what I think is depression. I 100% get the same lethargy to life, and it tends to come in waves.

If you haven’t, I’d look at having a chat with a professional. I’m not a good role model for this, but I have pushed through the lulls more times than I care to admit, and it gets tougher every year. The negative thoughts set in and create this negative feedback loop that makes functioning difficult, and digs a hole that’s hard to climb out of.

Anecdotally, if this is new to you, it doesn’t make for a happy life. I’m working to get help, but there are roadblocks. I would encourage you to try the same. If it doesn’t help, then you can cross that bridge later. If it does, then you’ll be in a much better place and the light will shine again.

…or the Internet really is just shitty.

thejoker954 , 3 hours ago

Could be both.

Clinicallydepressedpoochie OP , 3 hours ago

Likely both