Nah much more mundane. It seems to have coincided with me taking on a job where I’m dealing with lots of little problems popping up like wildfire that I have to rapidly respond to only for my efforts to be undone by a new disaster.
I’ve actually been doing pretty well at it, but it seems to have put me in a kind of “yeh yeh yeh whatever let’s just hurry up” state of mind that is somehow leaching in to my leisure habits. It’s like I’m trying to wrestle satisfaction out of the things I enjoy rather than just enjoying and appreciating doing the things themselves. Like, “I need to get X amount of pleasure units out of this thing before I have to go back to work and I just want to get it now in case something comes up, so can’t we just skip to the part where I’ve already felt satisfied by hearing the song without having to actually sit around listening to it?”