It is completely 100% ridiculous to try to ‘diagnose’ you from this short of a description, but it could be that you’re autistic to some degree.
Us autistic folks like to take moral issues a lot more personal, like having to lie. We’re often at odds with societal standards. We may feel like we’re socially slow, even though in my experience, it’s usually just that we socialize differently. And we definitely overanalyze things.