many years of reflection and cringe ahead of you. good luck with that
Only thing you typed I can agree with but I’m afraid for entirely different reason. I’d say if I look back at my self of a couple years ago and don’t cringe at at least some of my choices I went wrong in life. Unfortunately for you I really don’t see myself drifting off the deep end as badly as you have, been there once already and don’t really plan on visiting again. Was a dark place that.