I have known friends who have had a crush on someone. For me I never had. But they were not honest upfront. On my first date I told a date that I was a functional alcoholic and a traveling nurse. And I do not do sex on the first or the second date. I leave it up to them if they leave I know its not ment to be and never think about it again. Depends on how fine they are a couple of them I may have tickled my skittle to them but thats it. If you are having real problems or thoughts of harm please call 988 in the states or give me a pm and maybe just maybe we can talk.