My Indian friends tell me that Indian people are the most racist people in the world, to other Indians. That’s the biggest problem and why they left. You’re clearly a part of that. A traditional caste system and the usual socioeconomical issues of a large population obviously won’t help. These seem to be the cores of your issues. It’s not your fault, but you shouldn’t participate in that bullshit by saying such things and having such a defeated mindset.
You need to travel. You need to leave.
After you travel, you can self-assess under a more experienced and open perspective. You will likely not want to return, but you will not be hitting the world so jaded and focused on competitive success within society. You will relax, you will get options, you will settle into a comfortable life and in a few years you will complain about the mediocrity of being middle-class instead.
“But I can’t travel.”
Yes you can. You have plenty of skillsets that will earn you more money per hour elsewhere. All the while building up friendships, networks, and experiences. Your only issue is visas which you co-ordinate as you go. For now, much of the western world is very open to Asian immigrants and you’d be foolish to not jump on it while it’s still an option. Target the richer nations with low unemployment rates and you’ll find secure work.
Your main issue will be later when domestic family want part of what you’ve gained. That’s up to you. I have a friend that I found out was giving more than half his income back home because $60K AUD seems huge to people not paying $550 a week in rent. And I’ve also got a friend that, after her father died, threw her middle fingers to family and India vowing to never return.
Your situation is harder to endure than just leaving. But the amount of blame and hate you put on your circumstances makes me wonder if you can even realise that.
But as a white guy with 13 friends from Nepal, India, and Bangladesh, I’d like to think my advice isn’t entirely disregardable, as it’s indirectly from them.
Edit: Ah shit, I forgot that apart from visas your only other issue will be racism. It really depends on the industry and nation, but obviously there will be those anti-immigration even though they don’t realise immigration Is saving their fucking livelihood. Plus, if you talk about India and Indians the way you did In your post, you’ll fit right in with them lol—thats not a good thing long-term, but I guess an odd uptick (???)
Point is, whoever you are, you were born and will die. Go find a place in the world that you’re not miserable in. That’s your current meaning in life.