Hey, I too have a physical disability. It freakin' sucks. It takes so much from you it's like...what the hell? You know? For me I wasn't ever the healthiest, but I got by. You know? I did okay. Then around ten years ago it's like just chunks of my body decided to fuck right off. And it's been an uphill battle ever since and it freakin' SUCKS somedays. I mean just like screaming at walls because you feel so fucking helpless. But I have been getting through it. I am lucky, becuase I have a champion of a partner. And she's really helped a lot. She's stuck around for me, but to be honest I stuck around for her in a different way. I mean shit's not supposed to be tit for tat, but you do hope that the person you care about (and who cares about you) can keep going even through crunchy stuff like this.
This place has been good for my soul too. There are so many memes, so much racism, so much ignorance, so much repetition (^THIS!), and if you come at people like my hot-mess express you get dumped. Aww man, I once had an opinion on a band that sounds akin to screeching cats to me. Good lord, do not come to Reddit with an opinion. You will be crushed like a bug. It's ugly. I've been really careful of stating shit's mahhh opinion nowadays. Because it is, and folks are entitled to have an opinion as long as they're not like...actively hurting someone (as far as I know). And even then some stuff can be talked out, and other stuff should be thrown on the burn pile (I'm looking at you pro-sexual assault folks).
Big hugs, you ever want to talk sounds like we got fucked up at the same time and I'm around. But also you are totally entitled to ignore this =)