F YEAH! It's getting from that shaky part to the stable one that's the hardest. No worries, look I don't know your life you know? You've clearly been through some shit, and it can get people super dee-duper defensive super fast. Cause I know I sure as hell am reactive. But also, you know - I read it wrong and this is al text. You good! Thank you for the apology though, I apologize too - cause I def made some assumptions. Big love <3~!