Know someone who died three times. They're stone sober now, but it truly is awful. I mean in general. It's all freakin' awful. I was trying to think about solutions for those in active addiction. We can't keep treating people like stray dogs. It's absolutely horrible, especially for those who can't hold their own (I am thinking here heavily on gender, but I know there's other layers because the game is hard in the streets and you get absolutely wrecked being soft). I hope you're in a better place now. And you're able to maintain your addiction in some sort of way. There's support groups out there just waiting for your stories. I personally think they're safer over the phone, because it's my take that certain people prey on others. As a friend of mine went to rehab and came out doing worse than going in. But all things aside, just glad you're still here. Keep the peace!