And spite. Never let go of the spite that makes you outlive the assholes
Please explain that a lil more.
FWIW you mold your life with a “goal” in mind, and along the way improvise when shit comes at you.
You see, I had this goal for which I was ready to sacrifice a lot, but turns out I would almost certainly fail if I pursue it and even if I achieve that goal, it ain’t paying my bills! A lose-lose! After I realized that I gave up on it and along with it everything I knew about myself.
I don’t know what I am doing atm, I am just wandering around thinking, if I know enough maybe I will get to know what will make me happy and then I can pursue it. i.e., No use sitting at home thinking about it and having an existential crisis.