Well if worst comes to worst, please don’t ignore this community. People here can and will help. Maybe not financially, but I’m sure there’s people who could help arrange rides, laundry for job interviews, crashing on someone’s couch, etc. It’s a scary prospect, sure, but being on the street is also undoubtedly scarier. Also, while it might seem like a disaster, it might free you to end up in a state that isn’t so horrible? I don’t know, I just am hoping you can find help other than feeling the need to cheat. I think that help exists, even if it’s tough to find sometimes.
You’re not alone, even though it feels like it, we’re out here trying to build community, and that includes you.