It’s so easy for them to fall in to those holes. I’m currently half way though my 19th year of being a father to a what is now a fellow man.
That’s a loaded statement, but trust that he arrived there on his own. We had some amazing conversations along the way about; what gender meant to him, what the words gay and stright meant, hell we discussed what his fursona “could” be.
That one scared me, I was on b long enough ago that furf*g (sorry y’all) was still a term that I had defined 20 years ago without reassessment until the moment the 13 year old that was my favorite human brought it up over greasy appetizers at Applebee’s during a 4 day LAN party. Man, those kids that were sightly older than him with tails and ears were his everything at that event. Haha
Anyways, all along the way I’ve been part of his dialog with “the Internet”. I’ve done it as a very active user and a long time lurker. I still have irc channels I idle in and I still remember epic gets going back to 1 million. I was a boxy hater and you’ll never convince me otherwise even as the shoe head shit comes back as lame ass Q pedo baiting for 40 something neckbeards with poor relationship skills and amazing commander decks. (trigger warning for keyboard warriors that are really going through it, I hope you find grass some day).
I digress. What I have seen and tried with all my ability to do is steer him from being someone incapable of true human interaction and empathy despite natural bias. I think I got there but it wasn’t without tours through Wikipedia articles about misogyny, incel culture and feminism. It wasn’t without incredibly frustrating moments where I didn’t get why the fuck you’d spend hours a day on YouTube being fed what ever shit the algorithm served you. But I asked if we could go over his watch history and I had honest conversations with him about Andrew Tate and that culture. We did. I think I made things better by doing it too. Either way, there’s millions of dudes out there who never had that and it sucks. But advertisers know that nothing sells better than anger, unless it’s loneliness.
No matter what though, we may be an anomaly. And I understand why some can’t help but yell online in impotent rage. The only path they see to actualizing that is through a barrel. My neighboring high school senior year was the site of one of the first mass school shootings in America some 25 years ago. Now I’ve normalized active shooter drills and had legit discussions with my ex-wife about bulletproof backpacks. The fuck are we doing?
It’s a travesty we don’t have the support systems in place for anybody that doesn’t have the means for self sufficiency and it’s ever more so that we have created systems that further deny that for those that would benefit most from them. I don’t have an answer. Wish I did because it would sure give me something to write a manifesto about and possibly even inspire a lifestyle change to the Vegas strip with a belt pack microphone. That always seemed like an interesting reality. Alas, I’ll continue to live in a medium sized town, building a bug out NAS and hoping shit doesn’t get so hot I’m too exhausted to enjoy the fallout.
Stay safe out there. And thanks for letting a 40 something CIS dude monopolize the Internet once again.