I kinda like it still, because if it’s something i’m looking forward to, then i’m probably super nervous about it, so cancelling it makes me relieved i don’t have to worry about it right now. (Assuming it was just pushed further down the road rather than cancelled forever)
Like, i love DMing TTRPG games, and i hate how hard it is to schedule sessions, but at the same time, i secretly love it when a session needs to be cancelled because i’m always less prepared than i’d like to be.
Really good mushrooms can be equally cheap. They’re so much stronger than back in the day, 1g could be equal to 100mcg of LSD. Not to mention cultivating them is relatively easy as far as these sorts of things go.
I do ketamine infusion therapy as well. It’s a massive injection that is consistent and constant for about 90 minutes. It is one of the WILDEST experiences people can have, up there with DMT or DPT but instead of all of reality melting digitally disintegrating dripping all around you it’s much more like the classic description of a near death experience/OBE.
But it is very important to have a the prerequisite knowledge and the right intentions for first time psychedelic users. There’s a reason some of the greatest villains of history used these drugs to try to control human behavior and we don’t know the extent to which they were successful nor what they still do. I’m very suspicious of the predominant culture around psychedelic drugs, it’s just another example of colonial cultural appropriation and assimilation. The psychedelic experience is something that can be incredibly profound and powerful, but it can also fuck you up pretty good. These chemicals, the plants they come from, and the cultures that have been using them for hundreds to thousands of years demand a lot of respect. If you don’t respect them, you will quickly learn to.
but instead of all of reality melting digitally disintegrating dripping all around you it’s much more like the classic description of a near death experience/OBE.
That description doesn’t match my DMT experiences at all; at threshold doses I’m always somewhere else completely, the world doesn’t disintegrate around me, I go somewhere else entirely with no relation to my previous environment and I go there in seconds at most, it’s almost instantaneous. And what’s on the other side is indeed sometimes close to the classic description of NDEs.
Excuse me. Ive only done DMT once and it was a small dose. My experience with tryptamines is mostly 4-aco-DMT and DPT. But I get ketamine injections weekly.
It depends on you. Some people get therapeutic benefit from regular psychedelic experiences, and never stop. Other people gain life-changing insights from one or several trips. Still others use/abuse it purely for fun, with a range of consequences resulting. A minority of people have adverse reactions where latent mental illnesses like schizophrenia can be triggered.
I’m in the second camp. A couple quotes that I relate to: “Once you get the message, hang up the phone” – Alan Watts. “Never point [psychedelics] at anything you don’t want perforated with new light”-- Terence McKenna.
Thank you, the good news is I’ve never touched drugs at all, because I already know that it would send me into psychosis because I have predisposition to such problems, family history and delicate psychological condition.
So everything I do is intentionally extremely healthy and my life is very boring and I can’t do anything fun but that’s my life.
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