Yeah it’s like when you hear about playing baby shark 24/7 at a volume to deprive people of sleep and some people are like “hahaha baby shark isn’t that funny” but you can pick any song in the world and if you play it long enough, loud enough, keeping people from sleeping, they will go absolutely clinically insane.
I was on a flight last night desperate for sleep after a few weeks of a few hours a night and no naps (boring story, too many personal details to relay here). I desperately wanted to sleep. The guy behind my was doing a single, extremely loud, harsh bark/cough every 9 or 10 minutes. I would just drift off and bam! Another cough. I was so tired that I would jolt awake. The adrenaline would subside, if drift into a liminal state, and bam. At the three hour mark I snagged a black coffee and got it into me as fast as I could. If I didn’t, I was pretty sure I was going to freak out.
CT scans and MRIs are two different types of scans, done in different machines. A CT machine like a doughnut on its side - the hole you go in is wider and shorter. MRIs are more coffin-tubed shaped. If you go in feet first (for an MRI scan on your knee say) it’s ok because your head is on the outside. If you’re having a brain scan you go in head first, your head stabilised by a plastic support so you can’t move it. It’s so narrow in there you can bend your arm up 90 degrees, let alone sit up. The stabiliser stops you from moving at all. They put foam ear plugs in your ears and then big over ear headphones over that so the tech can talk to you and you’re not crippled by the noise. There’s a tiny mirror above your eyes, angled to you can see out of the tube. I’m not claustrophobic at all and I have to fight panic when I’m im in there. I think you may have had CT scans in the past, not MRIs. And if you had a MRI, you probably didn’t go in head first because it’s not really an experience anyone could describe as relaxing. Well maybe cave divers, or people who make homemade submarines might find it relaxing, but for your average joe it’s unpleasant.
That sounds super peaceful actually, but I’m very much the opposite of claustrophobic. I bury myself in blankets and pillows, and try to find the smallest area I can comfortably fit myself into to relax. I love forts and small spaces and sensory deprivation, so like you said, not the average Joe.
That’s the thing, it’s not peaceful. It’s unbelievably loud, like standing next to a car alarm or construction site. And every time you’ve finally get used to the rhythm of the banging and clanging, it changes pitch and tempo (? Idk the correct words) and any semi sleep-like state you’ve willed yourself into is disrupted. Plus it’s cold, the bed thing is hard and narrow and you’re not allowed to move at all - no wiggling to get comfy, no scratching your nose. You have to lie perfect flat and still in a cold, incredibly loud, uncomfortable and and sterile environment for 45 minutes.
I’ve always slept with a blanket on my head - even as toddler. Even when it’s boiling hot I need a sheet or pillow case or something over my head. I love small cosy places. I love that feeling of hiding from the world. You do not get that while having an MRI scan on your brain, I promise you.
Everyone’s experience is different. When I got an MRI scan I really did almost fall asleep. Yes it was loud but its rythmic tapping almost sounded like a song, and add the warm blanket on my legs I was sometimes almost nodding off (it was for a cognitive study so I had to stay awake)
You literally just described how I would sleep growing up. Find a small crevasse (usually behind the couch or under a bed), wiggle myself into it and fall asleep. lol
When headphones became cheaper, they were added to the mix too. 12 people in a house gets pretty loud! Or when my dad had to do rock concerts. He’d help me find a place to hunker down in.
I think a really key difference is that you could make yourself comfy in your little nook, and you could leave it at anytime. Plus in your case it sounds like you went there to escape the noise. This place is the noise. Even if you have a full on panic attack, you physically can’t get out of that tube without the techs pulling you out. Having the choice and ability to leave a space is really important.
The bottom of that Wikipedia page has a reference to something else that sounded interesting called “/dev/mordor” in some Plan 9 OS fork called 9front. Sent me down a really interesting rabbit hole 9front.org
I know someone who had a leak of CSF after getting a spinal tap, and the pain was absolutely crippling if she did anything but lie flat on her back. No medicine did anything to help. I can’t even imagine how painful it must be to have the CSF removed completely.
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