(...) if I see one. But I assure you it doesn't feel scary to me.
This has always been my view of the world. It means for example that I see my husband every day as if I saw him for the very first time in ages (minus the longing). I never get bored of him. It means I can just talk to strangers and be as friendly as if I was an old friend - because I usually don't remember old friends and play it safe.
But it also means I sometimes hold a grudge because (...)