I have no stake in this thing, but I can say condolences and you’re doing good. I can imagine needing to get your mind off things. When I was dealing with a death, I didn’t want to be left alone in the same flat for 5 minutes.
I’ve dealt with paramedics a bunch of times and they always leave a mess behind. I can understand that since they have more urgent things to do (I only wonder about the biohazard rating of such trash), but combined with this situation, it can certainly leave a shitty feeling.