Iām much more relaxed and enjoying life more day to day, but with that comes a lack of excitement.
Iām just not invested in anything and have no aspirations or excitement for the future, even though Iām living a life closer to what I always wanted when I was going through much harder times.
Iām a nobody and my ability to do anything about this current climate clusterfuck (or the economyā¦) is near 0. Iām going to vote, recycle, keep my consumption to a minimum, donate to charities, do my best to cultivate my friendships, etc. but in many ways Iām just very much done with caring about the ābig pictureā. I want to live the latter half of my life in as much peace and happiness as I can, because itās looking uncomfortably probable that shit is going to go spectacularly sideways in my lifetime, and stressing about it isnāt going to change diddly squat except make me feel worse, and I donāt have the energy for activism anymore thanks to a chronic illness.